pocik was here again yesterday to settle some stuffs. it was indeed the right time she came. i needed someone by my side, someone who understands me without having to tell the whole thing. Thank you cik!. 

we went around shah alam to get her stuffs done. it was hard but it was fun! all i am doing right now is patiently waiting for thursday to come. will be driving up to ipoh then to perlis. oh it has been a while since my last visit to perlis. misi tambah isipadu lemak di perut!


One advice i trully treasure:

" you should never try to change the way you are just to impress someone. no matter how brutal or how messy you are, that is you. you should be who you are no matter who you are with. yes, your attitude might not be pleasant, your looks might not be as beautiful as other girls, and your act may not be as polished...but who you are, how you act and how you look is what makes you...YOU. never restrain yourself from being who you are just to get a guy's attention. one day you'll meet a guy who likes you for who you are....who will fall head to toe for your chatter-box mouth, for your straw-biting habit, for your messiness, for your tomboy-ness, for your craziness. if a guy made you feel like you need to be someone else when he's around, just forget him. you worth more than that. your inner beauty will have a real man go crazy for you;not for your outer beauty. be yourself ema." (pahcik)


it was like a slap of reality for. i realized i was not being myself these past few months. i was, indeed, FAKE. to tell you the truth, it was not comfortable at all. i keep on messing with my own mind, telling myself i need to change...that i needed to be more feminine with my actions. not anymore. yes, guys will look for beauty; but that is not the kind of guy i had in mind. let him like me for my inner beauty. 

it is a sad thing today that most guys value physical appearance rather than what lies inside. 
it is worse to have a girl, changing herself just to have a guy to love her.