magenta eyed monster

she's a shortie :)

2012-01-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

sabrina has been keeping her hair long for quite a while now. there is nothing wrong with hair; it is smooth and silky. the only problem is that she doesn't like to tie her hair up. she likes to wear it down. it gets messy when she's playing around and get all sweaty, her hair would be all over her face! not a very cute view.

i asked her a few time whether or not she wants to cut her hair and she always refuse! but na ah darling we gotta chop those locks off..it is about time you have a short hair.

yes i miss those curly locks too.

she looks a bit too matured for her age (4 years old) with long hair, no? so sopan santun look so ayu. so....princess-y.

but i guessed it is time to get it short before it gets too long and she gets too comfy with her hair. plus she's getting more active nowadays and long hair gets in her way when she's playing. and she looked too matured for her age with her long hair. so with her mama's permission (of cos la kena mintak permission.bukan anak aku suka2 hati nak bawak potong rambut) i took her out to the saloon.

but it was not easy. she almost cried when i told her we are going to the saloon to cut her hair. but after a few promises and deals (vitagen/chocolate/happy meal)....me finally succeeded to get her hair cut. WITHOUT A SHEDDING A SINGLE TEAR OR HAVING TO DRAG HER TO THE SALOON'S CHAIR!. bravo bravo *please give some clap*

the finished product! asked the hair stylist to give her a bob-cut but since her hair is not thick enough this should do it. most importantly her mama approves.

...and she now looks a bit like dora the explorer kid. no more princess-y sopan santun ayu look...now she's carrying the fun-giddy fearless outgoing girl look :)

i love you like a fat kid loves cake!

cooking101 : Shepard Pie

2012-01-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum semua kawan kawan kak jimah semua :)

sudah lama kak jimah tak share cooking2 dgn u ols kan. maklum la cuti semester yang lepas kak jimah keje jadi memang nan hado lah sesi cooking2. tapitapitapi cuti sem kali ni kak jimah tak keje.kak jimah balik kampung jadi bibik! maka ruang ini akan dipenuhi dengan resepi2 kak jimah. aim kak jimah cuti kali ni nak gemukkan seluruh ahli keluarga termasuk mak2 sedara sepupu sepapat semua (gelak jahat dengan gerakan tangan seperti ibu tiri snow white)

ah sudahlah membebel kak jimah! (sambil tepuk meja). kata nak bagi resepi..mane?

baiklah, dah siap semua pen dan kertas? (tiru gaya chef wan dlm rancangan riang ria kuih raya cornflakes). hari ni kak jimah buat pie. cewah kak jimah western harini. adik kak jimah dah lama request nak makan shepard pie jadi sebagai seorang kakak yang mithali dan cuma balik sekali sekala, kak jimah ikutkan kehendak perut dia. lagipun tak ada lah leceh mana nak buatnye pun. cuma penat nak lecek kentang saje. alang2 kak jimah buat pie, kak jimah buat 4 bijik terus! ha bukan kak jimah tamak atau pelahap ye makcik2 sekalian, tapi kak jimah buat bagi kak mak2 sedara sekali. kan kak jimah dah kata aim kak jimah nak gemukkan kaum keluarga.

ok maaf kak jimah terbebel tanpa sedar lagi. sorry mukadimah terpanjang.ok mula2 kita tengok resepi untuk buat base pie. utk shepard pie ni kita gunakan kentang@potato sebagai base.kenapa?kak jimah pun tak tahu lah tapi sejak azali kalau shepard pie mmg guna base kentang.

sebenarnye resepi utk base ni same macam nak buat mashed potato.ingat dulu kak jimah pernah ajar kan kan kan? tapi xpe malam ni kak jimah rajin nak taip balik resepi tu utk makcik2 tersayang sekalian.salin ye :)

anda perlukan :

kentang. suka hati kamu lah nak berapa biji tapi advisable banyak sebab nak buat base dan topping. kak jimah beli potato smp 3kg utk 4 biji pie.
butter. dalam 2 3 sudu pun dah cukup utk 1 pie.nak kasi lemak sikit
susu segar. dalam 1/2 cup utk 1 pie. kak jimah guna 1/2 box sbb buat 4 biji.ini utk kasi lemak dan gebu kentang tu baru sedap dimakan.
garam. obviously utk bagi sesedap rasa.

langkah membuatnye:

rebus kentang sampai empuk.suka hati korang lah nak kupas dulu ke tak. kak jimah tak kupas.lepas dan rebus baru kupas.
lepas dah lembut dan empuk korang lenyek saaaaaaaaaaaampai la tak ada ketul2 dah. memerlukan kuasa tangan yang banyak.
masukkan butter dan susu dan gaul sehingga gebu. jangan lupa letak garam secukupnya. kalau terlebih garam jadi masin, nnt orang ingat awak nak kawin pulak!.
dan siap boleh set aside dulu sementelaah kita buat intinya pulak.

kentang anda perlu berupa begini.kalau tak sama, tak apa sebab semua orang adalah unik ada keistimewaan sendiri.

untuk intinya pula anda kena beli (ni kira utk 1 pie) :

bawang besar 1 biji
bawang putih 1 ulas.jangan lebih kalau lebih suka hati korang lah.
daging cincang yang 400gm
cendawan butang
tomato
mix vege
stok daging 1 kiub
tepung jagung 1 sudu + air 1 cawan
1 sudu lada hitam
garam secukup rasa

cara nak masak inti:

panaskan kuali.kalau tak panas, panaskan sampai panas.
tumis bawang besar+putih sampai naik bau.
masukkan daging dan cendawan. masak sehingga daging itu masak (kejadah ayat gini ni??)
agak2 daging dah masak tu masukkan semua bahan yang lain kecuali tepung jagung+air secawan tu.y itu nnt dlu
bila semua bahan2 dan masak, barulah tuangkan bancuhan tepung jagung itu tadi. ni nak bagi inti tu likat la tak la nnt terberai bila potong.ada faham?
tutup api dapur dan masukkan ke dalam mangkuk dan bawa ke meja untuk proses seterusnya.

inti anda mungkin berupa begini. sekali lagi kak jimah tegaskan, kalau rupanya tak sama, tak apa. kita semua adalah unik!

ok sekarang kite beralih ke meja untuk proses seterusnya. mula2 kita ambil bekas pie, suka hati lah nak bentuk macam mana. nak guna yang jenis apa pun tak kisah asalkan boleh bakar dalam oven. mula2 letak potato base di serata bekas.nak letak kat tapak je pn boleh nak cover tepi2 pun boleh.ikut tahap kerajinan masing2

lebih kurang macam ni lah rupanya.

kemudian boleh lah isikan inti.kalau rasa ikhlas dan pemurah boleh letak inti sampai penuh (buat gaya letak tangan kat hidung konon2 nak kata takat hidung). kalau rasa bajet tak berapa cukup nak beli daging, isi lah setakat yang boleh cover base pie pun dah ok.

kendiannye ulang balik proses letak kentang sampai tertutup isi/inti. petua nak senang cover bahagian atas adalah sediakan semangkuk air sejuk utk celup sudu sebelum ratakan topping.kalau tak nanti kentang tu tanak lekat pastu tergaul2 plak dengan inti. dah tak cantik rupe pie awok nanti. bila dah habis cover semua tu boleh la buat corak2 sikit bagi nampak seri. maaflah kak jimah memang bukan tangan seni jadi corak senget2 macam ni je kak jimah reti buat.tekan2 guna garfu je. kalau acik2 sekalian kreatif boleh la buat corak yang bombastik mister lobaloba.oh ye lupa.sambil buat semua ni sambil panaskan oven ye pada suhu 200 darjah celsius.

dan puas hati dengan corak masing, oven pun dah cukup panas, bolehlah mula membakor pie masing2. bakor pada suhu 200 darjah celcius selama 30min.kalau pie kecik jgn pulak kamu tibai bakor smp 30min. kang rentung pulok. pepandaila tengok time yang sesuai agar pie tidak hangus.

hasil akhir selepas dibakar dan menanti masa utk dibaham.

sekian sahaja sesi cooking2 dengan kak jimah kali ini. kita jumpa lagi minggu depan dengan resepi kek! Kek ape kak jimah nak buat?haaaa kena tunggu minggu depan. pastikan anda membaca blog yang sama esok lusa dan setiap hari.hahaha.

ok bye.

you can prepare an engagement party in just 2 hours (before the event)

2012-01-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum pembaca maya sekalian :)

sorry for MIA these past few days. i was...well busy with stuffs. hope it is not too late to wish my fellow malaysian 'HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR'. angpow lai lai gua tak nikah lagi jadi masih layak terima angpow :)

so...where have i been to?

i went up north! i have always been attached with the northern part of malaysia. i don't know why but i love it there. spent 4 years completing my degree there...not to mention both my ex-roomates are from perlis. coinsidence,no?

But this time it is a little bit special because i was on a quest (ceh, quest.mcm main online game la konon). one of my closest friend is getting engaged! it was an ad-hock thing. things happen so quickly. if i can paint a painting to describe the whole process, it would be like this :

image : google

i arrived in sri iskandar (from shah alam) late evening on 19th january then me and pocik head to perlis after maghrib. oh nasib baik gerak 1 day before the holiday kicks in. kalau tak for sure sangkut dlm traffic. the traffic was smooth, alhamdullilah :)

The engagement took place on sunday (22nd jan) but......2 days before sunday, we still didnt manage to get everything sorted out! and pocik was having her period pain attack (trust me, it is not like normal period pain.it is like she is about to give birth. i've seen it with my own eyes). we were busy going back and forth to kedah to settle some things until on saturday night, me and pocik looked at each other and asked

"betul ke ni saya nak bertunang esok ema? sirih junjung tak siap,backdrop pun tak ada, rumah tak kemas..."

to tell you the truth, i, too, was asking myself the same question. i, too, was afraid of what is going to happen the next day. but i know there's always a way for every problem. so i told pocik to just go to bed and we'll settle the rest tmrw morning. yes,it was a gamble - you might/might not get things done the morning of the event day.

luckily on the day of the engagement, came 5 beautiful angels (yes, beautiful...and handsome) to the rescue! they were pocik's college and students. one of the advantage of working in art and design faculty is that you are surrounded by creative people who can simply turn normal A4 coloured papers into something so amazing and beautiful just with some glue and paper clips!they did the final touch ups for the hantarans. one of the managed to siapkan the sirih junjung :) and he is a guy!pfft..art lecturer.they can do anything when it comes to turning things into an art.

one of the students prepared pocik; make up! she is so brilliant! cantik sangat dia mekap. just like a pro :) while we women were busy getting ready the boys were doing their best to help around the house. oh so cute! and pocik also gets 4 ad-hock photographers to capture her big day!

make up!

As for the rombongan, they actually just arrived in perlis that morning around 10am. they came from klang the day before and was stuck in traffic for 16 hours! kebas ke tak kebas lama macam tu? but alhamdullilah, they were on time and the 'discussion' went well for both parties. walaupun penat travel lama and jauh, all of them were happy:)

the moment.

amal and his fiance, pocik. see those artsy flower on the backdrop. yep,just normal paper....magically turned into something so beautiful and so in-theme of the event.

yes, amal is a giant. he is sooo tall that when i stand besides him i looked like a midget! amal is soooo nice. he might be one of the nicest guy i have ever met. always insist me to eat whenever we hang out and always buys me food. literally...always. pocik is very lucky!VERYVERYVERY SUPER LUCKY!if i could i would have tell how they met and how they actually got engaged. it is one beautiful love story :) sungguh aku tak tipu. a very romantic one.

sirih junjung hasil tangan abang wraziew (razi tapi sila sebut dgn lenggok manja)

the next day we went to kedah for paen's wedding. paen is pocik's best guy-friend.

...then pocik took me to the sawah padi! yeahhh at last! this is my first time selama 25 tahun dpt pegang sawah. oh ye memang jakun but i grew up not in a state where you can find paddy fields as your backyard. it was nice...we took the bike to the sawah and snap some photos. it has been a while since i last rode the bike but...ehem..still got it baby!

before we left perlis, sempat pergi to one of my housemate's house in alor star. we went for lunch at adileen's house. super yummy! i even help myself for a second round (muka tak malu). but it was delish! who can say no to masak lemak cili api beb?

makcik ina, leen's mom. terima kasih makcik. memang sedap lunch yang dihidang :)

pocik's brother's house/chalet. beautiful! akad nikad veneu perhaps?

by the way, another one of my ZF darlings got engaged last saturday. too bad i could be there since i was in perlis. but with the help of technology (whatsapp) i was not left behind. congrats mizah! you're going to be the 1st to get married this year! and get pregnant too! hahaha.

so there you go...my chinese new year was filled with engagements and weddings. and lots and lots of food! delicious food!

and now i am back home in kuantan...i am going to do some serious cooking and baking. watch this space for recipes and my baking pictures :)

what's your song?

2012-01-16T18:01:00.001+08:00

what's your feel good song?

semua orang mesti ada lagu yang buat dia rasa "damn, i the best!"

aku?

semestinya semua lagu FOO FIGHTERS.

bukan nk gebang ke nak promote ke ape ke.

abang2 Foo tak bayar aku royalti pun.

tapi kesemua lagu2 mereka...lirik2 mereka...

semua membina semangat.

semua motivative.

and when i feel down and need some free cheers

i put on foo fighters on my playlist

and blast my ears.

if i am driving alone to foo fighters,

i will cry.

because it somehow made me feel like...there is more to life

made me gave up on giving up.

One of the best song ever?

'the pretenders'

sila enjoy sambil senyum :)

Keep you in the dark

You know they all pretend

Keep you in the dark

And so it all began

Send in your skeletons

Sing as their bones go marching in... again

The need you buried deep

The secrets that you keep are ever ready

Are you ready?

I'm finished making sense

Done pleading ignorance

That whole defense

Spinning infinity, boy

The wheel is spinning me

It's never-ending, never-ending

Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?

What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?

You're the pretender

What if I say I will never surrender?

In time or so I'm told

I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well

The page is out of print

We are not permanent

We're temporary, temporary

Same old story

I'm the voice inside your head

You refuse to hear

I'm the face that you have to face

Mirrored in your stare

I'm what's left, I'm what's right

I'm the enemy

I'm the hand that will take you down

Bring you to your knees

So who are you?

Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark

You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?

(Keep you in the dark)

What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?

(You know they all... pretend)

You're the pretender

What if I say I will never surrender?

So who are you?

Yeah, who are you?

mask off!

2012-01-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

pocik was here again yesterday to settle some stuffs. it was indeed the right time she came. i needed someone by my side, someone who understands me without having to tell the whole thing. Thank you cik!.

we went around shah alam to get her stuffs done. it was hard but it was fun! all i am doing right now is patiently waiting for thursday to come. will be driving up to ipoh then to perlis. oh it has been a while since my last visit to perlis. misi tambah isipadu lemak di perut!

One advice i trully treasure:

" you should never try to change the way you are just to impress someone. no matter how brutal or how messy you are, that is you. you should be who you are no matter who you are with. yes, your attitude might not be pleasant, your looks might not be as beautiful as other girls, and your act may not be as polished...but who you are, how you act and how you look is what makes you...YOU. never restrain yourself from being who you are just to get a guy's attention. one day you'll meet a guy who likes you for who you are....who will fall head to toe for your chatter-box mouth, for your straw-biting habit, for your messiness, for your tomboy-ness, for your craziness. if a guy made you feel like you need to be someone else when he's around, just forget him. you worth more than that. your inner beauty will have a real man go crazy for you;not for your outer beauty. be yourself ema." (pahcik)

it was like a slap of reality for. i realized i was not being myself these past few months. i was, indeed, FAKE. to tell you the truth, it was not comfortable at all. i keep on messing with my own mind, telling myself i need to change...that i needed to be more feminine with my actions. not anymore. yes, guys will look for beauty; but that is not the kind of guy i had in mind. let him like me for my inner beauty.

it is a sad thing today that most guys value physical appearance rather than what lies inside.

it is worse to have a girl, changing herself just to have a guy to love her.

therapy.

2012-01-13T13:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes it is better not to care at all.

sometimes it is better to just let everything flows on its own

sometimes it is better to care more about the physical things rather than the emotional side

i am tired of playing the game

i quit.

i know; quitter never wins and winner never quits.

but what is the point of trying when you know it is never going to work out?

rather than spending all my energy and emotion on this 'one'

it is better if i use my energy and emotion on myself.

i know something good will come along soon.

how soon?

that is the question i keep asking myself

"pedihnya hanya aku yang merasa"

p/s: sorry for all the emotional updates these few days. im going tru something. i don't want to burden my friends with my unstable emotions so i just let everything flow here instead.

p/s/s: do not comment on this post, pls i beg u guys not to.

...who should i be when they're judging me?

2012-01-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum :)

hari ini Khamis. selesai urusan men-submit the last assignment of this semester. tinggal esok nak re-submit group project yang perlu di amend kan sedikit. dan dengan ini aku isytiharkan berakhirlah semester ke-3 aku di uitm. tinggal 1 semester lagi (insyaAllah) sebelum aku sekali lagi naik stage dan ambil scroll *berangan*.

sem depan = 1 class + 1 dissertation paper. Y_____Y.

btw, student sekalian, dah redeem baucer buku yang rm200 itu? gua sudahhhhh. sudah selamat burnkan rm100 membeli belah secara berhemah. hahaha. ey ingat senang ke nak dapat rm200 secara percuma untuk beli buku?

so to celebrate the ending of a tragic semester, me, erin and bismi went book shopping!

it was a tough call for me; to choose what book to buy. it was like going to war. i love books so much i could buy every single of them. my choice? would always be fiction and self enrichment books. but self enrichment books would be my #1 choice. - was thinking of reading a biography, still deciding who should be the 1st person i should be reading about.

tough decision to choose which pregnancy book is the best?

the catch of the day? presenting....(drumroll please)

tadaaaaaaaaaaa~!

ok some of you might be questioning why i bought the CLEO magazine. majalah itu termasuk dlam senarai atas sebab untuk mencukupkan amount. orang bagi baucer guna sehabisnya lah kan? plus Zoey is on the cover so why not.haha. i am super in love with the book of awesome! can't wait to read it and feel awesome.muahahaha.

....so i have another rm100 to spend on books. what should i get then?

#ontheothersideofthebrain : i like you.so much.but since i think you already 'friendzoned' me, i might as well take off my mask and show you the real me, aite? and pls, i beg you, just treat me like any other girls. i don't need to feel 'special'...because from this moment onwards, i'll treat you like a normal guy.

freedom 95% in progress.

2012-01-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

i almost achieved freedom. still need some touching up here and there before it is good to print. when i finally free from all these paper works, i am going to :

sleep like a boss.
eat like a boss. let's go and find good food!
read all the novels like a boss
9gag-ing like a boss
lepak like a boss

i have exactly 1 week to do everything like a boss because after 1 week im heading up to the north baybeeee! big events happening in both kedah and perlis this chinese new year. only then i'll be heading back to me home sweet home in kuantan where i can cuddle/hug/kiss my lil angel sabrina like a boss!

i love my life!

just some random video.

2012-01-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

facts.

2012-01-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

#factsaboutme : no matter how late i sleep, i will ALWAYS wake up between 8.00-8.30 am. ALWAYS. sleep at 3a.m...eyes automatically open at 8.15 am. sleep at 5a.m...will automatically comes to realization at 8.30 am. even if i try to sleep back, i will nvr work! unless i get up, take my bath, eat something, fb-ing...after a couple of hours, i can sleep back for 1-2 hours max.

so that explains the gigantic eyebag i have and the enormous dark circle around my eyes.

btw, i found this on 9gag (awesome website! me gusta!). so true!

on the other hand, i was browsing tru my fb photo albums when i realized that i have a few pictures of me and mya together; same position and pose :)

p/s: please friday come faster. i want to be free!

speedlite in 1 hand, holding on to life with the other.

2012-01-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and happy weekend people!

start off the first saturday in 2012 by going up the Broga Hill with my girls :) yes i know broga is sooooo lastlast year but why not? at least i finally made it up there. it was not as challenging as bukit pelindung (kuantan) and bukit bendera (penang) but it was worth it. the scenery was breathtaking! the best part was waiting for sunrise. oh so romantic.

spent the night before at jaja's crib but only get to sleep for 3 hours. biasalah girls bila dah jumpa you'll find it hard to sleep when your mouth wants to talk talk talk. started the journey to semenyih at 4 am and reached the plantation somewhere around 5.00am.

we started hiking at around 5.15am and reached the 1st peak at 6.00am. achievement! i never climbed a hill that fast before. i remembered it took me more than 2 hours to go up bukit pelindung and more than 3 hours to finally made it to the top of bukit bendera! tapi tengok distance la jugak kan. broga is only 1.7km.

the most challenging part? hurm..probably before reaching the 1st peak. we literally crawled up the hill. crawled.yes crawled. it was very steep and let me advice you, don't ever turn around to check on your friends because you might loose balance. while i was crawling, someone from the top screamed " ...jatuh! ...tolong sambut!". i was like "ape yang jatuh..?orang...?" when azira told me to try and grab a falling speedlite. turned out one of the fellas accidentally dropped their speedlite and i was lucky enough to be able to grab in on time before it fall into the gaung....and forever gone. i literally risk my own life trying to catch the speedlite. imagine yourself, crawling up a steep hill, using only your bare hands and feet. and you have to let go one of your hands to grab the falling speedlite. oh btw a speedlite is a flash (the one used with the DSLR). and not a single thank you...?pfft~

spent 1+ hours on top of the hill to witness sunrise. it was so peaceful :)

celebrated our success with some coconut :)

kesat dulu habuk habuk seluar sebelum boleh naik kereta jaja. sebab seat jaja perangkap habuk.

p/s: looking forward for gunung ledang and mount kinabalu this year :)

....in a nutshell.

2012-01-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

moi first post for 2012. Alhamdullilah, thank you ALLAH for giving me yet another day to breath and live.

So, how was your new year celebration? new resolutions? new attitude? new hair style? new love?

mine was just normal. nothing changed. nothing upgraded. nothing added.but i did lose something. i decided not to make any resolution this year. i learned that there is no point making new resolutions every year when you clearly know you will never make effort to fulfil it (*me). so this year i don't have any resolution. i'll just let me be free and do anything i want - unplanned is better.

2011 has been one of the best years. in fact it was the year where i travelled the most; both local and internationally. it was a year where i gained the most experience and has gotten wiser (* a bit). it was indeed, a year i will remember :

JANUARY

started the year by going backpacking with my girlfriends! we went to penang for the weekend. it was an impromptu vacation where everything was done last minute. the train tickets, the flight tickets, lodging reservation. everything was done in less than a week!

you can read about our journey here , here, here, and here.

*gained 2kg in two days during the trip!

FEBRUARY

it was Erin's wedding and half of the class went to celebrate her wedding. it was also the mid semester break for me. Papa took us back to Terengganu for a short vacay. and at last i get to go visit masjid kristal. all these while, i only get to look at it from a far.

back from the holidays, went for a one day trip to PD and Malacca with the housemates and fets. that was my first time going to Malacca! haha.

.....and naqib flew off to Australia to further his master in architecture for 2 years. was just in time to catch him before he departs. and he's coming back next month! haha.

MARCH

nothing much happened in march. but i did get the chance to go to the hot air balloon festival in putrajaya. although it was raining cats and dogs and the balloon need to be put down. at least i was there.

.....and i managed to organized my very first garage sale! it was a success; although not as big as the bazaars; but it is something i can be proud of. it was tiring. 2 days of garage sales, the hot weather, managing the customer,and CLEANING UP!

APRIL

was called for TPM interview. was veryveryvery nervous. the next day i got a call from metrowealth saying that i was hired by their subtitle department. and i worked my ass out for david teo for a month. it was a month where i had no fun at all. just work work work and sleep. but it was a great experience!

MAY

well, i resigned from metrowealth after a month. i got a new job which is far better in terms of salary and working hours. i was an english tutor for kids and toddler at PIXELS subang jaya. it was ok because i love kids and babies and working with them made my day. worked there for 4 months before i resigned to start my semester.

went to bukit cerakah for some healthy-time with the girls. this is why we stay close; because we can do anything and everything. even a simple thing seemed so interesting with them!

Finally! after a year of careful planning, i went to Bandung with my parents for a shopping getaway :) it was the best. since i hardly had time to go back home, the trip was a getaway for me and a chance for me to spend some quality time (and money) with them. you can read about the trip here, here, here, here

JUNE

another one of my 'geng wanita elit' got hitched! Tim tied the knots with jubey in June and as usual the classmates were there to celebrate the happy couple :)

....and i did something off my 'want-to-do-in-life' list. i was an extra in a corporate video. it was shot in prettypeektures HQ. i have been one of PP's fan ever since i saw their work of art. and to get the chance to work with them was a dream came true. alhamdullilah :) call me a freak but i was star struck when i saw Azmin (the founder of PP)

JULY

july was the month i travelled the most! i remembered my weekend was full with activities and hang outs session with the girls. it was jaja and mezah's birthmonth and i almost successfully planned a surprise party for them in my own room. that was the day i realized that i suck at planning surprise parties. but we had a great time!

Adopted these babies : gambit and gemma :)

Got the chance to be part of Bon Odori festival again! i went there in 2010 but was too late to catch the whole dancing because we were late. but this year (2011) we made it in time! much better this year, i wore the traditional outfit. it is not a kimono; forgot the real name. it was gra's but she lend it to me.

the very next day after Bon Odori, we went to ipoh for the sake of jimba. we were so bored with KL and shah alam, we decided to go out of town for a day.haha.that is just how crazy we can go! it was a day trip but we had fun. it was tiring but it was amazing! read about the amazing-ness here, here, here, here, here. yes, it was a one day trip; it was so amazing that i need to split it into 5 different parts for you to read :p

after a year of not seeing each other, pocik finally came to shah alam! she took me to an art exhibition (my first time going there).

AUGUST

Ramadhan! ramadhan = raya shopping. lokasi wajib is jalan tar. went there with the girls. still wonders where the hell did i get all those strength to walk around and shop while fasting. i am a superwoman when it comes to shopping!

iftar session with my boys :) stayed until the workers gave us signals that they are about to close for the day.

pocik came, again! this time for raya shopping and to mend her broken heart. again, i managed to walk and shop but didn't drop/collapse. i must be a mutant. and i went back to nilai with pocik for buka puasa session with the grandparents. i miss atuk :(

Ramadhan will not be complete without 'bunga api session'. we have been doing this tradition for 2 years now :) sometimes, doing childish stuffs keeps you down to earth. keeps you close to your roots.

...And it was fets and mya's birthmonth! They were born on the same date so we went out for iftar session at Fullhouse sunway pyramid. treat them with some cakes :)

SEPTEMBER

Raya aidilfitri. This year it was Nilai's turn so we celebrated the 1st day of raya there. head back to terengganu on 3rd raya. Raya this year was so-so. primary reason being the amount of duit raya collection : doomed! i hate being an adult. i don't get duit raya anymore. but i am proud to tell that i gave my brothers duit raya! haha.sikit je but it was a moment to be remembered.

went to mezah's graduation!

was invited to attend DBKL's charity dinner

OCTOBER

nad's convocation and mya getting smaller and smaller each day while i got bigger and bigger by day :p

went to JB-singapore-malacca family vacation! scored another stamp for my passport.tehee~

NOVEMBER

my birthmonth!!!! november is my favourite month because its my birthday. haha. and again my friends was successful at giving me a birthday surprise.damn they're good at surprising me!

after more than 6 year of not seeing each other, i reunited with my former matriculation buddies at anna's wedding. she was the first to get married (i think so).

DECEMBER

again, family vacation to PD/Malacca. but this time THE WHOLE family went! haha. i was pretty tied with assignments and test but hell with that, i need time with my family. it was a therapy :)

what made 2011 more memorable and meaningful was the fact that jaja was engaged a day before christmas! she was the first among the 9 of us to be engaged. she took the first step. she started a new era for us.

that is almost everything amazing that happened in 2011. it was amazing. it was a year i laughed the most and cried the least.

but one thing for sure, if you look closer, i gained weight tru the months. hahaha. i lose some weight then gained a few pounds the following month. then i lose again...and gain again. yo-yo weight sindrom.

i don't care. i am happy. and that is enough for me :)

welcome 2012. let's make more memories and pile on the experience!

happy new year guys :)

almost there...we're almost there baby.

2011-12-29T11:18:00.000+08:00

time flies when you least expect it, don't they? i sent Duta for service yesterday (it has been ages since the last service!) and the PIC asked me

"bila last tukar minyak gear?"

and i told her

"eh baru lagi, baru awal tahun haritu tukar".

then it hit me! it's almost new year. 2011 is coming to the end. it was almost a year ago i went to do a full service on my car. a year has passed by without me noticing. woa that sounds pretty creepy (to me). it's funny when you feel like you just entered 2011 when it is almost the end of 2011. but it is scary tho, when you look back and think about what you have achieved this year.

for me, personally, 2011 has been the shortest year but one of the best years ever! so many things happened and i am glad to say everything is great.

3 more days to go.are you ready?

ibarat melahirkan seorang bayi yang gempal

2011-12-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

truth and nothing but the truth of how i was sleeping/waking up for the past 4 days.

After 3 semesters of doing my masters, only now i learn the meaning of torture. never in my life i spent more than 2 days just to complete a report. never. i am not saying that i am that good but usually it took me 2 days max to complete a 10 page report. but this time it took me 4 whole days just to complete a 10 page report!

as you can see in the picture i provide, i literally sleep and woke up next to the books. yes, i did. those were the books i hugged as i sleep for the past 4 days. and those are the books that wake me up every single morning. it was not a beautiful scene to wake up and the first thing you saw is you workload.

i was stressed out during the whole process, i am not even myself. thank god i have my roomates to keep me sane. they tapau food for me, gave me motivation and pushed me to finish my work. if not for them, i would have not been eating the whole time. i was too lazy to go out and tapau food. all i could think of is fast food and that is bad for me.

this media law assignment won the title of the most confusing and almost impossible to complete assignment. it is. maybe because i don't have any law background and i have never learn about media law before during my degree years. or maybe it is just because i don't read much before i start doing the assignment. made me realized how great law students are that they are able to read and actually LEARN these things! salute to you if you are a law student.

1 down, here's more waiting :

28/12 : Submission of media law report and poster

graduate seminar final written test!

6/1 : submission of media management report

9/1 : media management presentation

12/1 : submission of graduate seminar concept paper

i can't wait for Wednesday to end.

after all is finish, i'm heading up north! nak join?

1/9 is engaged.

2011-12-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

christina perri - a thousand years (background music)

i never wondered how it will be like if one of my bestfriend is getting engaged. it never came across my mind that one of us is going to get engaged this year. primary reason is that we still act like we are 17 years old. we have been bestfriends for more than 11 years. we'll be celebrating our 12th anniversary as best buds in 2012. we have seen each other tru thick and thin.we have fight over small things, argue on different fashion sense and gave each other a very good slap on the face when one of us lose our mind.

and yesterday, it finally hit me. this is it. the time has come (muahahaha). who would have thought that Jaja would be the first to become a fiance to someone. no one. even mama was surprised when i told her the news a few months ago. Yes, we have been secretly discussing the event a few months ago but jaja asked to keep it a secret until the day itself. it was just a small ceremony for close family and friends. jaja has certainly followed the correct 'law' of engagement where you don't really have to set up tents and be all extravagant. it is only the 1st step towards a much bigger step. it was a very nice bonding ceremony. just friends and family members. it was a quick one too!

me and ili on our way to fets house. make up-less. sbb nak sembahyang zohor dulu baru make up.

tadaaa dah make up.senonoh la sikit kan muka dari tadi tak make up.

When we arrived, jaja was already getting ready.siapa mak andam? 'Sharifah Amani". hahahaha. jaja sister looks exactly like amani so that is what we called her. good job kakcik! jaja looks stunning on her e-day :)

muka orang berdebar debar nak tukar status jadi tunangan orang :) lebar sungguh senyum.

i will always have your back ja! no matter what :)

from her to him. simple hantaran no ipad no fancy handbags or shoes. just the normal things u were supposed to give on your e-day = sweet things and cakes. and sirih junjung of course.

This is not jaja's fiance. this is her abah. uncle suhaimi :)

i love you :)

the moment :) dup dap dup dap

we were supposed to go to bangunan kehakiman for an outdoor photoshoot but it was already late and it was about to rain so we went to pullman lake instead. without jaja. hahaha. and have our own mini photoshoot session.

jaja,
i can't really describe my feelings now that you are engaged. i am very happy but i guess i am sad at the same time. yes so drama queen. now that you have started the journey, i wish u the best and i want you to be happy with him. i've seen you tru your best and worst. i've seen you on your highest and lowest point. i've seen you as a monster and an angel. i've seen it all. we may have argued on things but deep inside we know why we are bestfriends; because we can be anything and everything when we are together.

i pray for you and bean. i pray that everything will go smoothly and great between the two of you. it is still a long way to go but you know, you'll come across sticks and stones along the way. be sure to have faith and don't let feelings take control in an argument.

...and you know you can come to me for anything kan? say it and i'll do it.

bean, take care of jaja. you don't know how much she cares for you. i've seen it all. you are beyond lucky to be hers :) you have made the right decision bean.

next in line....?

ezad and mezah. this january. Insyaallah :)

unaffected.

2011-12-23T17:56:00.000+08:00

it seems like my 'single' status has got some people worried. i am ok with it but it is a big surprised when you learned that you have these small groups of people who are not satisfied with you being unattached to anyone.

some say i am choosy when it comes to choosing a boyfriend.

some say i am so obnoxious that not even a single guy would come close to me.

and some even say i have this 'big' attitude that draws people (guys) away from me.

truth is, i don't care at all. i have been in a relationship ( a very long one) once. i have wasted 5 years of my life, my money and my time for something useless. i have had my heart broken only once and by only 1 guy. i have been stupid for a guy once. WHY SHOULD I DO IT AGAIN?

it is not that i don't want to be in a relationship. it is fun to have someone who you can text,call or go out with. i admit...it is one of the most incredible feeling to have some guy look at you and see u as the most beautiful girl in the world. it is AMAZING.

and it is not that i don't have any guys hitting on me. there are a few. not many but a few. but i politely decline when i feel like they are about to go up a phase. why?

i have seen many cases, i have read many true stories and blog rantings about love and relationship. not to mention hundreds of FB status about love. i see couples who are so madly in love (usually for the 1st 6 months) expressing their love on FB and blogs only to hate each other later. and yes, all those relationship status : married/engaged to boyfriend. are you that desperate?

you see, when you are in a relationship which u urself are unsure whether it will work or not, u are actually putting yourself in a position where you can get hurt anytime. yes, you want the relationship to work. yes, you are trying your best and changing every single thing you can about yourself for the relationship. but what is the point when you are not even sure of your future? then you found yourself screaming at each other, and not tolerating with each other, saying bad things about each other....you found yourself trying to control each other when you clearly don't want to be controlled.

i have been tru it once. i don't want to have to go tru it again. i don't want to hurt myself and suffer. yes, for me being in love with no clear future is a suffer. when i want to be in a relationship, it is because we are on our way to 'the big thing' (marriage).i don't have time to be a couple, to be just boyfriend/girlfriend. it is fair if i stay friends with the guys but keep it close to those i like. work it from there and see whether we are meant to be with each other or not. because once you say you are in a relationship with someone, you are actually giving a stranger the chance/power to control you. i don't need a stranger to control me.

i don't go and brag to everyone everytime a guy hit on me. i only share it with my close friends. do i really need to tell the whole world that i have a guy trying to impress me? i don't think so. it is a shame to do so because if it does not work out between us.....it would just make things ugly.

i have a guy asked me once

" what if there is someone out there who like you a lot and wants to be with you?"

i told him

" if he likes me a lot, he would have go straight to my parents and ask for their permission to be friends with me. that is the kind of guy i am looking for. not a boy who wants to play around but a guy who is brave enough to ask for me from my parents"

pardon me but i think only stupid people are willing to have their heart broken over and over again. they just don't get the lesson.

so pls don't bother if i stay single. i choose to be single. i choose not get hurt. and you can to think about yourself, your relationship, your life. and yes i admit i can be obnoxious sometimes but that is just me. i don't change myself just to have someone like me. in fact, i am pretty much myself around guys i like (after the 2nd meeting that is).

terpengaruh

2011-12-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

hai.saya baru balik dari library. pegi buang masa tidur dlm library sebab sedap ada air con dan kerusi empuk.

hari ni mari nak cerita sikit pasal lelaki. bila sebut je 'lelaki' macam macam kita boleh simpulkan. kita kecikkan sikit skop kita. kita cerita pasal lelaki, perasaan dan kawan.

aku ada la beberapa kawan lelaki yang boleh aku kata 'geng kacip'. bila aku kata geng kacip maknanya kacip yang mana aku adalah aku bila dengan mereka. i am a very different person when i am around my boys. trust me. sbb tu aku kadang2 reluctant nk bwk crush aku lepak sekali sbb nnt kantoi.hahaha. aku dengan kacip lelaki tak sama dengan aku dengan kacip perempuan.

rasanya mungkin sebab aku selalu lepak dan kadang2 aku terlalu rapat dengan kacip lelaki aku buatkan aku sendiri jadi keliru pasal lelaki dan perasaan. faham faham lah kan bila kita lepak dengan budak lelaki, kita observe. dan bila kita observe, u at least learn a few things about boys la kan. at thus, i got myself confused.

kacip lelaki aku memang baik. baik smp tahap kadang2 boleh dibuat menyamar jadi teman lelaki pn ada. tak semua lelaki macam tu kan? tak semua lelaki yang sanggup ikut aku pegi mall ikut aku sana sini layan kerenah makan2 aku. belum lagi campur layan kerenah berangan aku. these boys are 'the guys'. these are the guys yang kalau mama call pukul 2 pagi dan aku ckp aku tgh minum dkt mamak dgn mad dan sopi, mama masih blh tidur dgn lena. or maybe sbb kitorang dh terlalu baik smp we don't have any boundary? sampai kadang2 ada cerita hati dan perasaan aku yang aku sendiri tak cerita kat kacip perempuan aku, tapi aku cerita kat budak2 lelaki ni.

dan sebabkan aku terima layanan macam tu lah, aku tak boleh nak beza atau detect kalau ada lelaki yang suka aku (as a girl).sbb tu bila aku ada kawan lelaki aku layan sama...tak feeling2 walaupun rasa mcm dpt treatment lain. aku ni lurus bendul sebenarnya. i see boys as boys. semua sama. even if they treat me extra special sikit pn i would still have this thought that " oh mad dgn sopi pn buat mcm ni jugak". i can never push my feelings to believe that if a guy is trying his luck on me. never. one thing is because i don't want to get my hopes up too high.

kadang2 rasa mcm "maybe this is it". but then terus nmpk the image of mad, sopi and naqib :p terus rasa mcm oh maybe he just treat me like my boys do. terus hambar je jadinye. perspektif seorang perempuan dan lelaki memang jauh beza. kalau aku cerita pada kawan perempuan aku akan dapat feedback yang lain. tapi kan lebih elok kalau aku tanya sendiri pada kaum lelaki?

selagi orang tak cakap, memang aku tak akan tahu. dan aku jugak bukan jenis yang akan cakap kalau aku tak betul2 pasti.

are you confused too?

p/s: library shah alam yang baru ade gym!excited!

my definition of heaven

2011-12-19T09:35:00.002+08:00

It was a plan made loooooooooooong ago. dah lama dah sangat tak pegi family vacation. selalu ada yang exam, ada yang tak cuti, ada yang kawin. but this time by hook or by crook kita jalan je~ as usual we went to PD sebab ayah cik's company is under PNB so we get to stay in PNB ilham resort. biasanya sebelum ni kalau pergi PD mmg duduk PD je la main pantai but this time we took it up a notch dengan pegi tour melaka. Oh i love melaka!!! aku kalau pegi melaka 100 kali pn aku sanggup. it is the best place to be!

and this time it is even better with sabrina by my side the whole time! dulu sabrina tak lahir lagi so tak ada partner in crime :) and she was soooo clingy i can't be out of her sight for even one second or else terus keluar air mata meraung. but lantak la i love her more than that!

we went to menara taming sari (oh sabrina tak gayat siap panjat2 bagai), then to the A famosa, and the red building (aku tataw la nama ape), and makam st paul. we walked all the way to every spot! perghhh penat tayah cakap la siap pakej dgn kena dukung sabrina once in a while. i think i burnt a whole lot of calories on that day!.hahahah.

the cousins.

moi parents <3

sikat rambut setengah jam sekali. panas panas panas.nak je aku kerat rambut tu kasi pendek senang tak payah nk ikat ikat.

after a long tiring day, tumpas akhirnya. smp ternganga tido.kejut byk kali suruh bangun makan pun tak jalan jugak. so i had to pangku her and eat at the same time.

tp once dia dh bangun pastu nmpk pulak kerang, habis licin semua kerang dia sapu. oh hantu kerang!

it was heaven for 3 days.

it was heaven when the minute you wake up all u can see is your family

it was heaven when the only sound you can hear is the sound of your aunts and cousins laughing and gossiping

it was heaven when you can hug and kiss sabrina all day long

it was heaven when don't have to think about exams and reports for 3 whole days.

the next time i'm meeting my heaven would be in January 2012.

it was heaven for a while.

2011-12-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

back from the short holiday, back to reality, back to a much much faster track. i've entered the 'running' zone. no more walking ambil angin sepoi2 bahasa. everything is about to be submitted and one final test coming up on wednesday.

belum ada masa lagi nak bercerita panjang kisah holiday. kalau nak cerita kena relax2 supaya susunannya teratur. i am in the middle of completing my international communication report on halal hub in malaysia. curi masa sekejap update blog. :)

3 hari spend masa dengan family dan sabrina was heaven! there is nothing better than waking up to the sound of sabrina's laughter and shrieks. walking all day around malacca town was not a tiring thing when i have sabrina walking beside me, hand in hand.

tell you about it later :)

p/s: bukan nak menolak atau tak suka, tapi sehingga aku betul betul pasti dan yakin, akan terbukalah pintu :)

priceless

2011-12-15T21:44:00.001+08:00

Ubat stress paling mujarab ;-)

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-hiatus-

2011-12-15T08:52:00.001+08:00

won't be here for the pre-weekend!

..and certainty won't be here for the weekend too!

bye bye books journals and highlighters i'm spending some time with the sand and the beach.

see you on saturday!

dalam beg ada....?

2011-12-12T18:12:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :) mula mula tepuk tangan untuk bismi sebab dah ada kereta sendiri lepas ni aku nak jadi passenger sahaja. nok g derak mano pahni bismi?

Hari ini Selangor cuti. tapi kalau tak cuti pun aku memang cuti hari isnin sebab tak ada kelas :p. jadi hari ini nak bawak semua semua jelajah masuk handbag. nak? orang kata what u carry resembles u kan? jadi jom tengok dan boleh lah korang 'kenal' aku ni macam mana sebenarnya.

aku tak sure la perempuan lain, tapi aku normally akan bawak cuba benda yang penting sahaja dalam handbag. tak ada benda benda yang kurang penting atau benda yang merapu. kalau ada yang merapu pun biasanya biskut panda ataupun rocky la.itu pun kadang kadang ye aku bawak dlm handbag. paling2 pun aku sumbat novel seketul kot2 la aku boring tunggu giliran kat bank/pejabat pos.

current fave bag (sbb ade skulls.hahahaha)

Apa dalam beg skull?

these things!

so i have my :

purse. mestilah kalau tak ada mana nak sumbat duit dan segala kad2? aku suka purse yang ada tempat letak kad banyak sbb kad aku byk. aku pun tak tahu kenapa tapi semua kad2 penting.
kain telekung. senang tak payah nak tggu2 turn guna telekung kat surau2 awam. lagipun ada telekung yang kureeeeeeeeeng bersih kan. so bwk sendiri puas hati :) kalau boleh bwk ipad besar gedabak dlm beg takkan la telekung y ringan tak larat nk kendong kannnn~
moi shades/wayfarer . essential sbb aku silau. dan supaya tak kantoi kalau aku usya jejaka hot time kat traffic light.muahahaha.
mani/pedi set. senang nak potong kuku ke nak gunting ape2 benang ke kot2 la emergency.
lipsticks. yep i do carry more than 2 lipsticks at one time. reason being i love all of them and i tend to 'lick' my lipstick once i wore them so i need to re-apply byk kali. kalau tak mmg pucat la bibir aku.
eno/clorets. eno sbb perut aku senang kembung. clorets sbb kadang2 rasa nk kunyah something bila aku boring.hahaha.
cermin. tak payah explain la kan? mmg perlu kot.
eyeliner. touch up lps sembahyang.
pen. obviously utk tulis ~~nombor telefon dan bagi pada jejaka kacak~~ apa apa yang penting.
kunci Duta. my car key. kunci cuma 1 tp keychain byk.saje aku letak byk so adik2 aku rasa tertekan sikit kalau nak guna keter aku sbb nnt ssh nk simpan kunci dlm poket.
kunci rumah. ini cuma kunci grill je kunci pintu aku tertinggal kat rumah mama.hahaha.
bateri spare camera. ini kalau tak ada boleh meroyan. kalau ada tapi lupa charge pn blh sawan sekejap.
thumbdrive. aku kan moden. wanita moden kena la bwk thumbdrive.
my old matrix card. sedih tak rupa? dah tak ada gmbr aku pun. tapi aku dah buat yang baru dh.ni saje aku simpan. (lupa nk buang sebenarnya)
camera. never.leave.the.house.without.the.camera.

jadi apa dalam beg anda pula?

abnormality

2011-12-10T09:51:00.000+08:00

this is how i look now. exactly like a panda

dark circles + super horrible eyebag + gemgems

...kulit muka? tak payah cakap. kalau pakar kulit tengok dia pun histeria.

waktu tidur : i totally messed up biological clock. i would be sleeping around 3 am and wake up 4 hours later.

then i have this weird craving for food where i find myself constantly going to mcd for food.

i am a total mess.

siratsurat

2011-12-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

stress dan makan

2011-12-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

Saat genting sekarang ni sebab bila pergi kelas mesti balik dengan assignment dan due date baru. Contohnya kelas pagi tadi, lecturer kita bagi surprise kat semua orang dengan mengucapkan kata kata hikmat :

"next week the final 8 will present. 4 before break and 4 after break.Also I want to see your outline/1st draft for the mini book. then the following week u have to submit your mini book and sit for your final exam".

Terima kasih prof. jantung saya skipped 18 beat tadi masa dengar prof cakap. lagi lagi part yang prof awalkan seminggu exam yang pttnya pada 28 dis.

Jadi, sekarang kena put on my thinking cap and start working my ass off. Walaubagaimanapun sesi family day ke PD next week tetap jalan. Family first kan :)

Cool tak aku buat kira kira guna saintifik calculator? Terkial2 jugak tekan sebab dh lama tak guna.thank you housemate bagi pinjam :)

rumus normal musim stress : stress = lapar = kuat makan = gemuk bertambah =stress

Ibu-to-be erin dengan bayi yang semakin membesar :) dan bismi yang tgh nervous nak present.

jadi sekarang aku peduli apa janji bila aku rasa lapar aku makan sebab bila aku tak makan aku lapar dan bila lapar jadi semakin stress. bila stress sebab lapar mane boleh buat kerja kan? jadi siapa2 nampak aku drive tru mcd buat2 biasa je lah ye.

Ok bye nak pergi buat assignment!

Yang mana satu pilihanku?

2011-12-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

Mempersembahkan calon calon assignment semester ini :

7/12 : International Communication presetation
13/12 : Media Law presentation
13/12 : Graduate Seminar presentation
21/12 : International Communication case study report submission
28/12 : Media Law individual assignment submission
28/12 : International Communication examination
2/1/12: Media Management presentation
7/1/12: Media Management report submission

Kalau setiap 1 assigment boleh mengurangkan berat badan sebanyak 1kg kan bagus.

Dear brothers, pls don't puke.

2011-12-04T09:38:00.000+08:00

I am proud of my little brothers. They may not be the best but they are always there tru thick and thin. And I am not the best sister but still, they are not ashamed to call me 'along' in front of their friends.

I am not going to say that my brothers are good...Im not going to say that they are good kids. But I am proud of them in the sense that they are independent. In fact, they are much much more independent than I am right now.

The first brother, Mie; is a photographer. I admit it, I sometimes envy him for being able to buy things on his own. Since he was a small boy, he NEVER ask for anything. He would accept anything given to him and never question. I remembered when he was 3 years old, our arwah to'ki would take us out to buy bird food. Sometimes we make a short pit stop at the mall. One day while we were browsing tru the toys section, Mie saw this one sword (if I'm not mistaken, it was a thundercat sword or something). He was staring and belek2 the sword. Then my to'ki asked him " Mie nak? Kalau nak To'ki belikan". He replied "Mie nak tgk je". *hiding all the toys I held behind my back*. When he was growing up, I can't recall him asking parents to buy him anything. Whatever my mom and dad gave him, he simply accept it and never argues. And he take really good care of his things! Broke his thing (Especially those mama papa gave him ) then you're dead!

He's very passionate about the thing he do. When he do, he'll do it with his heart. He was a best student during his diploma years (Anugerah every sem). He managed to score even tho he's busy going around fulfilling his duty as a photographer. One thing that amazed me is that, he is firm to his decision. If he does not want to do it, he'll never do it. Masuk UMP seminggu je lepas tu berhenti sebab dia tak rasa nak belajar lagi (pada masa itu). He said he wants to focus on photography first. Alhamdullilah rezeki dia memang murah part tu. He's only 21 but he has more assets than I do. He has his own car, an Ipad, savings, a row of lens etc. He buys his own clothes (ini untung sebab bila dia dah tak muat tshirt semua sedekah kat aku), shoes, pays his own bill. His bedtime story book? Jutawan Muda by irfan the internet millionaire.And he does not smoke! He is very careful on how he spends his money (not like me). And he's about to open his own photo-shop next year. What did I do/have when I was 21 years old? nothing except for a lousy boyfriend.

My youngest brother just turned 18 years old last October. He's currently doing his diploma in Halal food thingy. Just like his elder brother, he is independent. He knows mamapapa will always disagree with his request so everytime he wanted to buy something, he'll save his own money...since he was still a school student! Dia bawak bekal so tak payah beli makanan kat kantin kecuali hari Jumaat sebab ada nasi ayam sedap katanya. I am talking when he was 16-17 years old. Kalau budak lelaki normal, malu lah bawak bekal tak cool tak macho. Na ah not my baby brother. He was so proud with his bekal siap share dengan kawan2. Compared to Mie, I am more close to Wan. I am more comfortable talking to Wan about anything. But I love them the same :) Wan is funnier and loud compared to Mie. He's the clown in our family. Wan grew up by doing things on his own. If he's hungry, he'll find his own food. If he wants something, he gets it on his own. And he never refuse to do anything I asked him to do.

I never say out loud that I am proud of them. I am proud to tell people "these are my brothers". Along loves you!

define : friend.

2011-12-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

How do you classify someone as your friend?

Like beauty, the definition of a friend can be subjective. It is up to your own self whether to classify someone as your friend.

I define a friend as someone who can be her/his own self when I am around, can laugh at my silly jokes and vice versa, never hesitate a request for help and someone who I can talk about anything and everything. Close friends are those with all of the above criteria + are able to keep/share secrets + have the license to curse at you when you do something stupid.

Call me cold-hearted but I don't care much about people who are my acquaintance. Who are my acquaintance? They are the people who I make professional relationship with; meaning that I'm friends with them but not the extend of a friend (based on my definition of a friend). I treat them normally but I don't really mix around with them. I keep the relationship professional.

Why do I have these groups of friends? I don't like to keep grudges/hate. I want to be clean from all the negative feeling. If I don't like you as a friend, then I'll treat you as my acquaintance. I don't hate you but at the same time I don't care about you. I believe that you should not be hating people for being who they are. YOU SHOULD LEARN TO ACCEPT THEM. And I do believe that not everyone would like me as I am; they have the right not be friends with me or to talk about me.

The truth is, you don't get anything by hating people, by writing bad things about them in your blog or by making them your laughing stock with your friends. But, by keeping a healthy relationship with the people around you, you will at least save yourself from carrying a heavy burden of grudge in your heart (which later can be seen on your face).

True friends will always be with you and will always tell you the truth. It is a cliche but if think that does not make any sense, it proves that you have not find your true friend yet.

" ....kalau dia ada pun bukan kau makin kaya, kalau dia tak ada pun bukan kau makin miskin."

R.a.n.d.o.m

2011-11-29T01:03:00.003+08:00

You might not know that:

I prefer sour-ish food than sweets
If I'm driving alone, I play my Foo Fighters CD and cry all the way.
Never knew the existence of high heels and wedges until I was 22.
I don't think much. I just do.
T shirt was my staple cloth; until this year.
I started to seriously wear eyeliner in 2011.
When I was 9, I pronounced 'field' as fai-eld.
My longest crush was Duta from Sheila on 7. Still crushing on him until today.
I go crazy over bags and shoes rather than clothes.
I prefer to shop for clothes at a thrift shop.
I am random. I do things randomly.
I am the complete opposite of myself when I am around a guy I have feelings for.
I think I have the biggest patience in the world. I am almost never angry.
I wish I have a bigger bump.
I will never say 'no' to tempoyak and budu.
I don't look as nice as I look in my photos. Don't be fooled.
If was given RM1000, I would probably splurge on food.
I have always wanted to lie down and look at the stars. In the middle of an open field. With someone special. (you may puke at your own risk)

Now that you've read this entry, you know more about me :)

I hit some balls yesterday.

2011-11-28T10:39:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Adakah anda mengalami sindrom sindrom stress dan tekanan hati jiwa perasaan? Adakah anda rasa seperti mahu jadi abang long kawasan dan hentak seseorang dengan kayu besbol? Adakah anda rasa seperti mahu melepaskan semua tekanan dan sakit hati anda tapi tidak mahu mengambil apa apa risiko yang merbahaya?

Mari ikut saya *tarik tangan korang*

Selamat datang ke It's a Hit! Batting Cages OU! Ini adalah terapi tekanan paling berkesan setakat ini yang aku jumpa. Agak2 duit tak berapa nak banyak untuk shopping tapi perlukan terapi,jemputlah datang ke sini. It's a miracle!

Aku dah laaaaaaaaaaama teringat nak datang tapi tak jumpa cari kat mana. Kadang kadang datang OU tapi lupa benda ni ada kat situ. Tapi kali ni memang pergi OU solely untuk pergi lepaskan tekanan di sini. Bukan lah aku tertekan ke apa ke, tapi saja nak main pukul pukul. Ni assignment dah siap sedia beratur jadi sebelum aku tertekan siapkan satu satu baik aku pergi buang tenaga negatif aku dulu.

Ye tahu dress code tak sesuai. Maaf kadang kadang memang datang perangai bimbo jadi noob.Dah tahu nak pegi pukul bola masih lagi geletis pakai seakan akan nak pergi hi-tea.

The cage.The cage where you release your anger *deep voice followed by evil laugh*

Aku sedang beraksi. Sesungguhnya aku rasa dalam berpuluh puluh bola yang terbang ke arah aku, cuma 10 biji yang selamat aku hentak dengan kayu besbol.

Abang gagah *tangan ke bahu mata ke atas*

...was wearing this into the cage *bimbo moment*

Please pardon my eversobimboyoucanslapmyface expression.

Lepas penat dan sudah hilang segala aura negatif dan stress di minda, boleh lah cool kan badan dengan makan dan minum sambil buat postmortem pasal pukulan masing masing. There's a big baseball-shaped cafe just outside the cages. We brought donuts earlier and decided to top up our burned calories by eating it after the hitting session.

Dan kalau anda semua tertanya tanya dia manakan tempat awesome ini, It's on the rooftop level at OU. To make it easier, take the lift next to Parkson ( the old wing of OU). Lif to boleh pergi terus ke rooftop. Lif lain, tak boleh harap. Price? Usya sendiri :

Kitorang amek 30 mins home run. Itu pun berpeluh macam lari 1 jam atas treadmill. But I guess if you amek yang token pun it's the same jugak. cuma kalau nak jimat sikit pergi ramai2 dengan kawan2 boleh lah ambik yang home run package. And for beginners (macam kami) di advisekan amek softball sebab bola lebih besar dan kurang laju. Agak agak dah pro boleh pukul 5 biji tanpa miss, boleh la try baseball pulak.

Thank you for reading and I leave you guys with a picture worth more than a thousand word : Sofi singing his heart out to New Boyz greates hit - Sejarah Mungkin Berulang.

Misteri komedi.

2011-11-27T11:26:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Happy weekend people! Semalam saya pergi jalan jalan dengan housemate saya. Kita kecikkan sedikit skop jalan jalan : Kita pergi menonton wayang.

Selalu kan kalau kita tengok the making of sesebuah filem (khususnya filem melayu) at the end of the TMO, mesti keluar ayat

"Jangan lupa saksikan filem yang bakal memecah box office ini di pawagan berdekatan anda. Sokonglah filem tempatan kita. Sokonglah industri filem kita"

Jadi sebagai warga negara Malaysia yang memang suka dan ikhlas nak membantu industri kita, aku ajak lah housemate aku pergi tengok cerita :

verdict : Thundercat + Power Rangers + Ultraman + Predators + Ratu the Movie. (prepare mental waras anda untuk ending movie sbb something very rare happens in the end)

Aku malas nak ulas lebih lanjut tapi kalau bukan sebab ada satu scene flashback tu ada special appearance by Gambit, memang aku pergi kaunter mintak refund duit tiket aku. Afdlin, say thank you to Gambit because he saved your film.

....dan to make up to my disappointment, I went shopping. YES is here!!!! Gila sekejap aku masuk Padini. Maklum lah aku cuma beli kasut ketika ada potongan 50% ke atas sahaja. Kalau time new arrival tu aku pegi usya dulu. Tunggu sale separuh harga baru aku rembat.

Sebabkan keluar pagi...nak senang parking dan tanak que panjang to get the tix, semua keluar tanpa makan. Bawak bekal air kotak and roti je makan dalam kereta. See Afdlin, pengorbanan kami untuk pergi menyokong filem tempatan yang mana posternye sungguh gempak; Hans Isaac looks really hot running like that.

Sambil tunggu nak masuk, we went around.I was so excited to get onto a sledge, I dropped my pretzel :( baru gigit 3 kali!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hari ini jimba dengan girlfriend dan jejantz ku!!!!!!!!!! don't forget to say hi if u bump into me today :) might be going to OU.

Miss to Mrs.

2011-11-24T15:12:00.000+08:00

~ Lagu Latar : Kompang Dipalu~

Assalamualaikum semua ! Baiklah hari ini aku tak akan tulis introduction panjang sebab kita nak terus ke point utama. Hujung minggu ini bermula sesi kenduri kahwin marathon. Maklum lah cuti sekolah di Malaysia lebih dikenali dengan nama 'musim mengawan'. Dahulu masa masih remaja *glance at the mirror and shed tears* selalu ikut mak ayah pergi kenduri masa cuti sekolah. Seronok lah dapat gula gula dapat telur lepas tu bila jumpa pengantin rasa macam jumpa artis. Nerves bukan main siap malu malu nak bergambar dengan pengantin. Bila pengantin tegur rasa macam kena tegur dengan artis pujaan. Sebab kan pengantin mekap luar biasa cantiknya macam artis2 dalam tv jadi kita pun feeling2 lebih la wak~

Sekarang dah tak remaja *applying anti-aging cream with one hand* jadi sekarang dah giliran pergi kenduri kahwin ~~sendiri~~ kawan kawan pulak. Kad undangan datang bertimpa timpa! Terima kasih lah abang posmen sebab susah susah hantarkan ke rumah. Boleh kata hampir setiap minggu mama call " Ni ada kad kahwin untuk awak ni. Siapa kawin?" Dah tentulah bukan aku yang kahwin -____-".

Bermula hujung minggu ni..berderet jemputan aku terima. Korang sebut je negeri mana semua ada! Semua jemputan tu datangnya daripada kawan kawan sekelas masa aku di USM. Dah nak jadi isteri dan suami dah korang ye. Dulu sama2 kita stress tarik2 rambut buat assignment multimedia, sama2 berdiri dalam bas, sama2 tahan sejuk jawab exam. Sekarang semua dah nak tukar title baru :)

Tapi, maaf ku pohon dari kejauhan. Aku tak dapat nak hadir ke majlis korang. Asalnya memang aku dah merancang nak pergi. Terima kasih buat yang sudi poskan kad kahwin. Assigment aku datang bak cendawan selepas hujan. Maklum lah lecturer style bagi assignment hujung sem :( Mana yang dekat InsyaAllah aku usahakan tapi yang belah utara dan pantai timur aku minta maaf, tak dapat nak hadirkan diri.

Separuh daripada mereka dah pegang status tunang/suami/isteri/bakal ibu. TESOL USM 2006/2010

Aku doakan majlis korang berjalan dengan lancar dan meriah di sana. Semoga bahagia sehingga syurga dan dapat anak yang comel comel semuanya~ InsyaAllah kalau ada rezeki kita jumpa lain hari ye :) Lepas majlis sila upload gambar cepat cepat sebab aku nak tengok!

Shin Thian darling, when are you getting married? I miss u the most! Ini dia kawan baik aku dan partner sepanjang 4 tahun di USM. Dia sekarang mengajar di Johor. She's the best!

Oh pls aku tak mahu kembali ke saiz asal!

Anna weds Aaron Aziz (Seth Tan)

2011-11-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum! How was your weekend? Semoga semua gembira dan bahagia menempuhi hari minggu yang sekejap. Esok (hari ini) dah Isnin tapi oh well aku masih bercuti sebab tak ada kelas.

Tarikh cantik semalam 20.11.2011 and ramai yang selamat diijabkabul kan semalam sempena tarikh cun melecun. Jadi sempena tarikh cantik hari baik, aku pun turun padang pergi meraikan Puan Anna yakni kawan se-matrikulasi merangkap penolong praktikum aku masa kat matrik Gambang dulu. Sebenarnya dia dah menikah seminggu yang lepas di Kluang tapi aku tak berkesempatan nak pergi belah sana jadi aku meraikan belah suaminya. Janji meraikan kan?

It was killing two birds with one stone. I get to celebrate Anna's wedding and at the same time reunite with my long lost matric friends! Not all of them were there but it's better than nothing kan? Met Ain gege and Ain keding and Niah....and turns out that we are all still students! none of us are working ~~and all of us are single~~.

And is Aaron Aziz the groom? he he he he. Scroll down for pictures and judge it yourself :)

My housemates tagged along. Thank you housemates sudi temankan kitewwww~

Bertemu kembali kita selepas 6 tahun tak jumpa~ Semua dah ummm matang I can say?From left : Ain keding, Ain gege and Niah. And me.

The beautiful couple. Aaron Aziz tak? Tak? Tak ke? Korang rasa tak macam Seth ke?Ok scroll bawah lagi....

Now mcm Abg Aaron tak kakak2 semua? Anna is one lucky girl! They are going to have beautiful babies! (soon I hope teheee~). Oh ini gambar yang diambil dari meja guestbook. Gambar pre-wed.

I just had to take a picture with him. For no obvious reason. Well, he could be the future Prime Minister (one day) and I'll be thankful I took this picture.*Anna kita doa awak jadi 1st Lady Malaysia satu hari nanti.

Anna is moving to Changlun after this. To Anna and Hafis,

I wish you guys the best in everything and may your life be filled with joy and laughter. I know you guys are going to have beautiful babies and be the best parents. Take good care of each other :)

p/s: I got weddings to attend every weekend starting next week. Most of my friends are getting hitched :) Dulu abang posmen hantar kad raya, sekarang abang posmen hantar kad kahwin je ke rumah.

I may have wrote about this before, but I think it is worth writing about it again.

2011-11-17T13:24:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum and happy Thursday. Miss me? * talking to the mirror* . Apologies on my behalf for not being able to write as frequent as I used to. I don't know what has gotten into me but I may have lost my magic in writing. I'm sorry maybe this just a phase a blogger have to go through once in a while. But here goes nothing :)

Mula mula ku persembahkan rupa terbaruku. Semakin sihat semakin lebar dan semestinya tidak semakin ringan. And based on this picture, I might as well have lost a few pieces of my sanity. Pardon me, but this picture was taken after my International Communication mid term test which I think was *^@*&*@

Now, here's the real thing. I just want to share with you guys about my birthday.hahahaha.No, no big parties no balloons or fire crackers; just a small surprise from the girls I love the most!

Jaja, Mezah and Fets threw me a small surprise 'party' in front of my house. I was literally surprised! They were supposed to come and pick me up for dinner and to go and take Jaja's new ride *ehempriusehem* for a spin around Kuantan. They told me they were on their way so I got myself ready la kan. Aku tunggu 45 minutes kot! My mama said they were probably bluffing/they left me/ they forgot to pick me up. Then someone rang the house bell. Mungkin orang datang beraya sebab logik la kan kalau datang nak ambil tak kan bunyikan loceng. Mesti tekan hon kereta baru.

...opened the door and saw candles!.....candles?oh kunci mane nak buka pintu!

I went blank for 5 seconds. I saw Mezah's face and she got candles under her chin. Then only I saw Jaja and Fets trying to open my gate. They brought cakes! So I went out and menjalankan aktiviti biasa ; menjerit dan bergambar dengan cake.

tadaaaaa I present to you The Cake of The Year~ jangan tertipu dengan jumlah lilin. Ada satu lilin yang bersembunyi.

The day before I left Kuantan for Shah Alam, Ili took me out for a birthday ride, also in her new ride *ehemmyvikuningehem*. She told me I can ask for anything to eat and it is all on her! Ili knows best! Me and food are like Chuck and Blair; we have this love-hate relationship but deep inside I knew I can never say no to free food!

1st stop: Tutti Frutti :) oh yums! Aku hanya makan benda ini kalau 1) orang belanja 2) aku rasa mcm aku kaya ( beli dan makan share). Still wondering how some people can afford to eat this everyday. They must be either super rich or they just want to be seen as cool. Oh ini aku share ye dengan ili~ Sebab itu mcm tamak sikit ambil toppings.

Terima Kasih Ili!

Then we went to Teluk Cempedak (mana lagi nak pergi kalau di Kuantan kan?) and I requested for a Happy Meal because I want the free toy. I got Hambuglar!

You see, friends come and go. Even best friends come and go. But what I have with these beautiful girls are beyond what people would label as 'best friends'. It is not everyday you find 8 girls *now women* and be more than best friends for more than 10 years now. I must have done something very good in my life that ALLAH S.W.T gave me these awesome girls as my support system :) Alhamdullilah.

I don't make friends very often,but when I do make friends, they'll always have a room in my life :)

Thank you sebab sudi luangkan masa untuk baca entri ini :)

The tiger, the legend and the crocodiles.

2011-11-10T18:29:00.000+08:00

Disclaimer : Ini adalah cerita tertangguh. Dalam kata lain cerita basi.

Almost 3 weeks ago, my family went on a mini roadtrip to the south. Jalan jalan tengok tempat orang. Lagipun cuti panjang (aku tak cuti panjang cuma aku sendiri yang panjangkan cuti aku) sebab Deepavali and both my parents got 5 days off from work. Me? I got 2 days off for the weekend and only 1 day off for Deepavali but *serkup muka dengan beg kertas* aku ponteng 2 hari. Maaf encik2 lecturer.

The journey started on Sunday morning. It was a beautiful day *happy songs playing on the background* and off we go to Johor! We spent 1 night in Nusa Damai (my papa's aunt's house) before heading to Singapore the next morning. Didn't do much on the 1st day since we spent most of the time in the car. When we finally got to Nek Ndak house we were dead tired and I spent the rest of the day sleeping (and waking up for tea and dinner)

On Monday we went to Singapore. halaaaaaa nothing much to brag about the Singapore trip sebab we just 'cicah kaki' je masuk Singapore. It was not a very well-planned trip. It was more to sight seeing. 1st time datang so we don't have much knowledge about the town. So we just went to anywhere near the bus depot (yep we took the bus there) and end up 'shopping' in Bugis Village. Bukan lah shopping sangat since the currency exchange is...fuhh~ rm2.50 for $1. I bought a Tshirt and that is all.

We took this bus from Terminal Larkin to Woodlands and to Queen St in Singapore. Paid rm 1.20 for the whole trip JB-SG and $2.40 from SG-JB. kenapa nak balik mahal? entah. Tanya orang singapore.

Happy faces.My papa was so happy his face vibrates when he smiles.

This I can say was their final bus stop la lebih kurang. The Queen st. The bus stops here and then it's up to us to wander around. Boy, we were clueless at that time. My papa was asking me where we should go like I was a Singaporean. And I end up saying " Orchard Road" because that is the only place I know people go to shop. But we never made it there.....

*The boy in the red and black checkered shirt is my brother. He seldom appears in pictures because he's the one snapping the pictures. And also because he doesn't like to be in pictures. I was fast/lucky enough to get to snap this superb picture of him.

yeah 3 for $10. It is cheap but if you ever convert the dollar into RM, you'll be thinking twice before buying. Papa gave me rm100 and I got only $40 after converting.And i have to SHARE it with my other brother so each of us only get $20. I bought a tshirt and then I became the poorest tourist in Singapore.

We didn't spend a long time in Singapore; I think we were there for 4 hours. Mama was not feeling well and the rest just don't have money to buy anything. So we decided lets just go back to Malaysia where I can have money and spend it without converting anything. Maths has never been my best friend.

The next day we head to Malacca. I have always love Malacca! It is one of the most beautiful state in Malaysia. I love everything about Malacca, I think I'll marry a Malaccan :) Tapi tak pergi banyak tempat pn due to mama's condition. Mama tak makan so tak larat nak jalan2 sangat. But we managed to go to the muzium kapal. Oh selama ini aku tengok dari tepi tapi sekarang aku dah masuk dalam.hehe.

Brother #1 is not in the picture. He refuses to be in the picture. But thank you for snapping this beautiful photo of us :)

Kau mampu?

Sekian sahaja cerita percutian kali ini. Terima kasih to MamaPapa sebab bawa kami adik beradik tengok dunia :)

7-11-11

2011-11-07T21:57:00.001+08:00

Time flies when you least expects it. It has been a year since my friends surprised me with a cake while we were having dinner and they did it again; but this time they took it up a notch by bringing the cake up to my gate! I was speechless. My mind literally went blank for 5 seconds before I managed to find my house keys to unlock the front door and let them in. Frankly speaking, I was not expecting anything that night. I was down with fever earlier in the morning and didn't have the mind to think about my birthday. The thing is, I rarely get surprises. Usually I would be the one surprising other people so when I got surprised myself, I went blank. A feeling I can't describe.

So here I am on my 24th birthday.

I am blessed to be given 24 years to live, to experience life, to fall down and get back up again, to cry and laugh at the same time and to know what it feels to love and be loved. As they say, when you get older, your birthday is just another day go by. It is just a day to remind you that once, your mother fought hard to give you life. And its a reminder that you were once a winner; the winning sperm. I don't feel like I used to feel when I was a teenager; where I want people to celebrate my birthday, shower me with presents and say good things about me. Now, all I want to do on my birthday is to spend it with the people who matters the most to me ; family and friends. Yes, it's a cliche but it's true. Presents is not my priority anymore. A simple wish would do it.After all, it's the thought that counts kan? :)

To Mama and Papa, thank you for bringing me into this world and had keep up with me for 24 years. InsyaAllah , I hope I'll get to wake up every year on my birthday to see your smiling faces wishing me 'happy birthday'. What you guys had done and gave me, I can never repay you back even with all the money in the world. But I promise you, my Doa will always be with you :)

To Jaja, Mezah and Faten; Thank you so much for the surprise. Aku ingat Jaja sesat tak jumpa rumah aku sebab tu sampai lambat. NEVER crossed my mind there would be cakes and candle waiting for me. You guys are the sweetest! The rest of ZF, aku tahu korang pn sayang aku jugak kan!

To everyone who wished me on Facebook, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. You guys made my day. I was literally smiling ear to ear when I replied your wall posts.

Thank you Allah for giving me 24 birthdays (so far).

How mama was warded and how I became a homeless person.

2011-11-02T20:36:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum :) Sorry for not being able to post anything here for almost a month. I was pretty busy with life (the real side of it). Now I don't know where should I start; there are too many stories to tell! I want to write about my friend's wedding, our mini trip back to Kuantan, my short family vacay to the south region and yes, about random stuffs which I find very interesting to blabber about. Which one first?

I think I'll start off with a not very good story. This is about how my mama was admitted to the hospital for a week.

During the short family vacay (which I will tell later) mama was not feeling well. She was vomiting everytime she ate. She could not even have a small bite of anything; she'll throw up the minute it goes in. So during our 4 days of travelling, she was not eating well. In fact, she was not eating at all. And she would throw up every night while we were sleeping. It breaks my heart to see her like that. Tapi, sakit2 pun still she managed to go and walk until Singapore! But she has to carry a new accessory with her ; a plastic bag which she held so dear to her heart that every time she felt like throwing up she would put the plastic bag to her face. She would not leave the room/car without a plastic bag in her hand and a few more she kept extras in her handbag.

When I asked her she told me she did not feel any nausea or headache or pain in her stomach; but there was something inside her that kicks out everything she ate. Papa took her to a clinic in JB and the doctor said it was gastric; but a more serious one. So he gave her some gastic pills. She was fine for a few hours after consuming the pills, but once we reached Malacca, she was back to vomiting and being friends with the plastic bags. But still, she was okay walking around Malacca and going into museums. As long as she doesn;t eat anything. How would you feel seeing your mother couldn't swallow anything while you gobble everything? I was a pain I couldn't explain.

On Wednesday ( the day I return to Shah Alam and there rest of the family went back to Kuantan), papa took mama to KMC (Kuantan Medical Centre) for further check up since she was not recovering at all. Straight away she was admitted to the ward. Keep in mind my mama is not a big fan of hospitals and needles; but that night she was like...relakan apa sahaja as long as she can be healthy again. AND NONE OF MY PRECIOUS LITTLE BROTHERS HAD THE HEART TO TELL ME! I only got the news on Thursday when I called my mama to asked how she was doing. She said she doesn't want me to worry and that everything is ok. pfft~ never believe a sick person; lagi2 if it's your own mother. She will always say she was doing fine when she was not.

I rushed back to Kuantan on Friday after class and straight away went to KMC. Boy, was she surprised to see me! turns out that she had gall bladder stones and it needs to be removed via operation. Mama was not happy. She doesn't like to be cut open (who does?) but the doctor said he will only poke a few holes and use this canggih stuff to take out the stones. The operation went well, Alhamdullilah and the doctor managed to take all of the nasty stones out; half a bottle of them! now mama is figuring out what she should do with the stones; frame it or turn it into a bracelet.hahhahaha.

I was her loyal companion when was warded. I was there early in the morning and will only leave when mama doozes off. After her operation, I stayed in the ward with her for 3 whole days. I slept in a sleeping bag and wore hideous clothes my papa brought from home. One thing about my papa is, he's clueless when it comes to his daughter's fashion. I specifically told him to bring me t shirts which I kept in the first drawer (where I keep all of my good tshirts). Instead, he took tshirts from my second drawer (where I keep my not so good tshrits - baju duduk dapur). And for three days, I looked like a woman who just gave birth with mismatched tudung and lousy t shirts. I was eating a lot of mcdonalds (which is next door to the hospital) and also my mama's food for 5 days. I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror because I felt soooooooooooo serabai!Sometimes I felt like a homeless person because all I did was sleep on the floor and eat and play angry birds and fruit slice. The outfit just made the image of a homeless person more realistic. Everytime I go out to buy food I silently pray I wouldn't bump into anyone I know because I am soooooo hideous.

Tapi lantak la serabai pun as long as I can be with mama and make sure she's okay :)

Mama was discharged this evening, Alhamdullilah. She's now recovering well eventho she now walks like a pregnant lady; so slow. Thank you for those who gave their doa to mama and wishing her best of health. You guys are the best :)

Mama having her dinner. This was before I took over the tray and finish everything.muahahaha

Orang yang paling takut jarum kena cucuk paling banyak.

perkhabaran kecil.

2011-10-17T11:16:00.000+08:00

Maaf, buat kalian yang sudi membaca menunggu hikayat terbaru.

Hakikatnya aku teramat sibuk dengan dunia nyata sehingga tak punya masa untuk duduk bersembang dengan dunia maya.

Aku taburkan janji, satu hari nanti aku akan kembali dan duduk bersembang dengan kalian.

Perihal hidup, perihal alam, perihal manusia.

Bersabar ya :)

hikayat hujung minggu.

2011-10-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

Jangan lah terkejut sampai macam tu sekali. Tahu la muka aku besar. Tapi ini super besar. comel? Aku ada banyak cerita dan aktiviti nak update tapi ya ampun malas sungguh kepala nak rangka ayat. Apakan lagi nak menaip. Nak mintak steve reka alat cakap dan auto type, dia dah selamat bersemadi. Jadi aku main taip je lah ye apa yang keluar di otak aku. Kalau agak agak muak ke menyampah ke pandai pandai lah close tab anda.

Sabtu lepas aku ada test IELTS. kena ambil sebab ada dalam list perkara yang perlu ada dalam surat TPM. Selagi aku tak submit result IELTS selagi itulah 'gaji' bulanan aku pending tak kemana mana. Tapi aku pun silap sebenarnya. Patut aku ambil TOEFL sebab aku nak furter ke America tapi entah apa kena masa nak register aku pergi mintak IELTS. Tak apa nanti dah nak further aku pegi lah ambil TOEFL pulak.^____^

Test dekat Corus Hotel, KL. Test pulak Sabtu dan Isnin. Jadi aku crash mya's place for the weekend. Malas aku nak ulang alik shah alam- kl dua tiga kali. At least boleh aku curi curi keluar jimba dengan Mya. Lepas test aku ajak Mya pegi shopping bundle dekat Danau. Oh heaven!!! Restock koleksi baju tanpa rabakkan poket. Sambil shopping sambil tunggu Jaja sampai. Then we headed to Wangsa Walk Mall tgk Johnny English.

Esoknya kebetulan si Nad konvo kat UIA. So pergi lah ucapkan tahniah sambil cuci mata usya graduates UIA. Kebetulan Mezah pun memang menapak di UIA sebab dia kena buat hearing apa ntah. Mezah kan kerja dengan UIA so bila ada pesta2 konvo dia terlibat. Biasa lah graduation, panas wajib extreme dari biasa. Bukan Nad je yang konvo tapi ada beberapa lagi ex-schoolmate yang konvo hari yang sama. Jadi dapatlah jumpa mana yang terjumpa. Pada yang tak terjumpa tu mungkin jodoh kita tiada.sobssss~

Syima.

Congrats Nad! Nanti jadi engineer yang baik hati ye :P

Nina pun grad juga on that day.

Dah habis konvo, kita pergi OU pula jalan jalan. Sebenarnya Mya nak pergi dating tapi dia tak bagi ikut so dia tinggal aku dan Jaja kat OU lepas tu dia pergi dating bawak duta.

Sekian cerita minggu ini. Sedikit gambar kenangan untuk korang buat wallpaper desktop :) Ambillah, free ni.

sesuatu yang pasti.

2011-10-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

Mati itu pasti. Kita hidup untuk mati suatu hari nanti. Setuju?

Suatu hari nanti. Bila sebut suatu hari nanti, maknanya kita sendiri tak pasti bila kita akan mati. Yang pastinya, kita memang akan tinggalkan dunia ini nanti. Antara kita bersedia atau tidak, bila sampai masanya kita tak akan boleh lengahkan masa atau tunda saat kematian kita.

Persoalanya disini, bersediakah kita sekiranya esok kita dijemput bertemu Ilahi?

Kita selalu berfikiran bahawa kita pasti akan hidup sampai kita tua. Yang kita pasti akan hidup lama dan akan dapat menikmati saat muda dan tua. Aku pernah ditanya oleh seorang kawan:

"Apa yang paling hampir dengan kita?"

Puas aku beri jawapan; mak ayah, adik beradik,keluarga. Semua dibalas dengan gelengan. Aku tanya dia apa jawapan sebenar?

" Yang paling hampir dengan kita adalah MAUT. Ia sentiasa dibelakang kita; sentiasa mengejar kita; sentiasa mengekori kita. Cuma tunggu masa untuk dia menerkam."

Benar apa yang dia kata. Kita tak pernah diberitahu tarikh kematian kita. Kita juga tahu bahawa malang tidak berbau. Sebab itu kita kena sentiasa bersedia sekiranya kita 'terpilih' untuk mati esok. Atau mungkin sekejap lagi. Jadi bersediakah anda?

Bila kita masuk tidur malam ini, kita diberi peluang 50-50 sama ada kita akan bangun esok pagi dan masih berpeluang untuk hidup sehari lagi atau kita sudah terlambat untuk melengkapkan apa yang masih tergantung.Aku bukan nak berfikiran sempit dan aku tak kisah dikatakan aku berfikiran kolot kerana tak pandang jauh. Biar lah orang nak mempertikaikan kenapa aku suka nak fikir bahawa aku tak akan hidup sampai tua. Aku lebih suka aku hidup dengan perasaan yang aku akan mati bila bila masa supaya aku sedar diri.

Jangan pandang enteng soal ini. Jangan yakin yang kita akan hidup lama. Yakin bahawa kita akan mati suatu hari nanti. Jadi, sudahkah anda bersedia?

image: google

Sudahkah anda sembahyang hari ini? Siapa tahu mungkin esok anda tak sempat dah nak sembahyang. Rugi kan kalau macam tu?

bad habits die hard.

2011-10-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

Sebelum aku merapu dengan lebih lanjut lagi dan sebelum kamu semua terpedaya dengan tajuk entri aku yang seakan akan gah dan menarik perhatian, aku nak ucapakan selamat Hari Isnin (Monday blues). Kepada yang bekerja, aku ucapkan selamat bekerja dan bekerja lah dengan penuh semangat. Kepada pelajar khususnya pelajar UiTM, aku ucapkan selamat belajar dan tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke liang lahad.

Semua orang ada tabiat buruk/tabiat kurang buruk/tabiat tak berapa comel. Aku pun tentu lah ada juga. Kang kalau aku cakap aku ni tak ada bad habit, mesti korang cakap aku perasan bagus. Tak sedar diri. Rumah kata pergi kubur kata mari. Kalau nak disenaraikan kesemua bad habit aku memang mustahil. Sebab ada bad habit yang aku sendiri tak sedar aku ada. Maklum lah, kita kan kadang kadang mana sedar yang kita ni ada buat perangai hodoh melainkan ada yang menegur.

Tapi ada satu bad habit yang aku sedar itu tabiat tak comel tapi aku tetap buat sebab ia dah jadi tindakan luar refleks. Tindakan yang dilakukan tanpa sedar.

Aku suka gigit straw lepas habiskan minuman.

Memang kalau ada lelaki yang tengok pasti akan terus terbenci dengan aku. Dan banyak dah kawan yang tegur tapi....tahu tak nikmat gigit straw sambil bercakap dan ketawa? Sambil drive juga seronok gigit straw. Kadang kadang kalau tak ada yang tegur, sampai hancur straw aku gigit.Bila dah hancur satu hujung, aku gigit hujung yang lagi satu pula.

Memang tak comel perangai tersebut. Tapi macam yang aku cakap tadi, bad habits die hard. Lagipun aku ada dengar gossip yang mamak akan recycle balik straw yang masih elok jadi ini adalah salah satu langkah untuk mengelakkan mamak recycle balik straw aku. (tapi...kalau straw yang aku gigit itu straw recycle..........Y_____Y)

Gambar basi hari ini: Rombongan ke jualan warehouse Padini di Glenmarie.

Meriah dengan manusia yang suka barangan murah.

Dalam proses untuk cuba bolos masuk pagar ke warehouse. Panas dan memakai pashmina di tengah panas adalah tindakan kurang bijak aku buat pada hari tersebut. Patut aku pakai jojet je.

Dah macam PATI yang protes minta gaji di depan kedutaan.

musim mortar board berterbangan.

2011-09-28T13:48:00.000+08:00

It's graduation season..yet again! My news feed was flooded with convocation pictures and 'Congratulations!' of my juniors in USM. I miss USM. It is one of the place where I'll put under 'The list of places that I know I can live and survive without a single sweat'.

This year it was Mezah's turn to put on her robe and style the mortar board on her convo stage. She was late by a year due to some issues but what the hell as long as she is now a graduate! and to top the cherry which is on top of the amazing ice cream...she's now an audiologist. A CERTIFIED AUDIOLOGIST for almost a year.Belum konvo dah dapat surat tawaran kerja. See, you can never guess what the future holds for you. You may come across or stumble across a few hurdles or obstacles along your way to your future, but there's always a silver lining behind every cloud. And when you finally realized that it all make sense, you'll smile like nothing else matters :)

Now back to the real story, Mezah's convo was on Monday the 26th. I *dont have any class on Monday (actually I do have a replacement class on that day but sometimes skipping class to witness your friend in her convo robe is more tempting that sitting in class for 3 hours and not know anything the lecturer is saying). I was up really freaking early! Usually I would hit the pillow for another hour after my Subuh prayer but not on Monday baby. I was up and dressed by 7.30 am. The reason being I need to catch the 8.00am train to Petaling where Fets was waiting for me.

I was years ago since I last took the KTM. Noob gila sampai tak ingat macam mana nak insert tiket dekat palang. End up going tru the open gate.Tak guna pun tiket yang beli T____T.

Me and Fets were up early because I need to go to the British Council to register for my IELTS on the 8th of October. Ingatkan dah cukup awal tapi dah lambat. Slots for the speaking test is full so I need to come back either on the 9th or 10th just for the sake of the speaking test yang ambil masa cuma 11-15 minutes sahaja :(

Had brunch at Subway and headed to KLCC (because it was the nearest mall we can go to.Me hate KLCC sebab parking mahal). We were supposed to meet up with Mya there for a movie but...Mya is Mya. You can never expect her. She's just unexpectable. She can either be 2 hours early or 2 hours late. Last tak jadi movie.

We had ample time to go around Kinokuniya...Had another late lunch at Sushi King and tawaf the whole tower for like 3 times before Mya arrived. Bare in your mind, we were up so early. We were like walking zombies going around the mall. It is no fun to walk when your brain tells you to sleep. I couldn't even talk much because I was so sleepy. Now that is creepy...my lips felt so heavy!

pffft~

Fets couldn't make it to Mezah's convo because she has a class so off I go to Bangi with Mya. IT WAS SO HOT and wearing a shawl on your head is not an intelligent decision. Yes, I feel pretty but it was hot! Kenapa bila masa konvo mesti cuaca luar biasa panas?

Bought Mezah a rose. A ROSE. One. Sorry Mezah tak ada bajet lebih nak belikan sejambak. Next time when you've finish your Masters Degree and I'm already a working lady, i'll buy You a bouquet of roses in your favourite colour.

future MR.Mezah. Muka pun lebih kurang cuma Mezah tak ada janggut dan misai.

And then I went home. Thank you for spending a few minutes to read my ramblings on something that is not at all important to you :)

DBKL Charity Dinner.

2011-09-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

Semalam (23 September) Narz jemput aku dan Emi pergi dinner company dia yang merupakan anak syarikat DBKL (kot?aku pun tak berapa sure sebenarnya). Narz masuk pertandingan karaoke jadi aku dan Emi datang bagi sokongan dan tolong bagi bunyi tepukan lebih kuat. Sebenarnya agak kucar kacir sedikit nak pergi dinner ni sebab kitorang class full day dari pagi sampai petang. Lepas habis kelas pagi (di mana lecturer aku syok sendiri sampai terlajak masa sampai 1 jam) memang aku rushing makan+solat+siap2 dan terus pergi kelas melaram habis. Bagi aku kalau pakai dress dan rantai dah cukup melaram sebab biasanya aku pakai jeans tshirt cardigan je.

Tapi tak make up sebab aku memang tak pandai make up. Yang aku tahu cuma lukis eyeliner, sapu mascara dan pakai gincu sahaja. Yang lain aku memang fail C-. Tapi untung lah dapat classmates yang baik hati dan pandai make up. Aku cuma perlu tadah muka sahaja dan wallah~ muka menjadi lain hasil tangan classmates. Terus muka yang pucat bertukar jadi kemerah merahan (rosy) dan berseri seri u ols.

Lepas habis kelas terus ke Menara PGRM, Cheras utk dinner. Itu pun sangkut juga dalam traffic. Nasib baik kelas habis awal.Kalau tak mesti lagi lama nak sampai.

Orang yang tak nak dengar VIP berucap. Main cari nama sendiri kat ipad. Last last aku pun terjebak sama.hahahaha.

Makan? so-so sahaja. Tapi aku suka ikan sweet sour dia. Itu memang sedap. Emi cakap semua tak sedap tapi yang ikan tu aku rasa memang sedap. Sampai licin Uncle sebelah Emi makan ikan, tak sempat aku nak cedok lagi sekali. cis.

Narz dapat tempat ketiga utk pertandingan karaoke! Tahniah~ tak tahu lah aku apa hadiah yang dia dapat tapi berat lah jugak kotak tu.Bukan Narz je yang dapat hadiah. Aku dengan Emi pun dapat jugak.Dapat apa?haha. Sila scroll down.

Nah! kitorang dapat banyak door gift. Aku siap ambil utk kesemua housemate aku terus. Ramai yang tak ambil door gift sebab tu banyak lebih. Untung lah~

p/s: Gian nak bergayut phone, tapi nak call sape?

maaf sibuk.

2011-09-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

Maaf lama biar blog tak bercerita baru. Sibuk uruskan macam macam hal. Ini pun masih ada hal yang berbaki lagi. Dalam sebulan lagi InsyaAllah boleh selesai (kalau keputusan ujian baik). Urusan apa?

Alhamdullilah, aku dapat tawaran biasiswa TPM UiTM. :) Senyum lebar. 5 bulan jugak lah aku setia menanti abang posmen datang rumah hantar sampul besar warna coklat berlogo UiTM. Akhirnya penantianku membuahkan hasil.ngehehe. Tapi bak kata orang, nak dapatkan duit bukan senang. Aku setuju. Macam macam borang nak kena isi, macam macam ujian kena ambil. Oleh kerana aku jenis yang memang careless maka aku serahkan segala urusan mengisi borang penting kepada Papa ku yang sangat cermat dan bertulisan cantik. Kalau harapkan aku yang isi, memang banyak lah yang silap. Silap2 memang cancel terus borang kena isi borang baru. Papa aku pun sampai demam isi borang, bayangkan kalau aku yang isi borang sendiri. Silap hari boleh kurus macam Fasha Sandha sebab tekanan isi borang.

Kini kau tahu dari mana aku mewarisi jari jemari gebuku.

Terjumpa passport lama. Maafkan muka budak aku. Muka kena tempek bedak secara emergency oleh mama supaya nampak macam anak mat salleh dalam gambar. Hasilnya kecapukan muka kami adik beradik.

Isi perut supaya ada energy nak tulis alamat banyak kali dalam borang. Kenapa lah alamat rumah aku panjang sangat?

Aku bangga sebab aku boleh rasa khidmat kawan baik aku sendiri. Aku disahkan normal pendengaran oleh Mezah ZF.hehe. Siapa yang nak buat test pendengaran boleh jumpa mezah ye :)

p/s: Cuak nak amek IELTS!!!!!!!

p/s/s: Nanti dah free dah siap submit borang barulah aku boleh tulis blog macam dulu. (ceh)

food,friends and a start of a new semester.

2011-09-15T13:31:00.000+08:00

After 4 months of semester break, everyone seemed so excited to go back to class. Not me. Well, I was excited at first but after spending 2 weeks of holiday in Kuantan, my butt felt as heavy as a rock! thought of staying home for another week but something came up so I had to go back to Shah Alam.

Mama kept me awake all the from Kuantan-Shah Alam. I can drive by myself but, you know lah kan Duta, he's unexpectable sometimes so I don't want to be alone if anything happens.

My first dinner with the housemates? Mcd. Malas nak fikir nak makan kat mana and Shah Alam is back to its normal condition; SUPER PACK WITH STUDENTS. So mana mana kedai makan or food court was filled with students! The best thing is to go for fast food because I don't want to wait long to get my food.

excuse my nude and bulat face, 2 weeks of home-cooked food turned me into a big face monster!

My first class was on Tuesday ( I don't have any class on Monday and Thursday) and boy was I excited to meet my classmates! After 4 months of not seeing each other, we could just not stop talking! Jadual sem ini kurang best because I have classes on Friday from morning till 6.30pm and there's one class in menara SAS. So not cool.

The classmates.

Isma is pregnant with her 1st baby! she's 4 months pregnant now :) And Zuri (on my right hand side) sekarang berimej baru :) makin cantik!

Lepas kelas me and girls went for an early dinner at Pakli.Just me, Erin, Tim and Bismi. Kelab kelab isteri belajar.haha.

This is my first time having a class in SAS so I was a bit worried about the parking. Siapa yang duduk UiTM mesti tahu macam mana nak parking dekat menara. If you're late, nasib lah kau parking lah mana2 dan berdoa supaya tak kena clamp. But I was lucky tho, found a spot (walaupun kawasan larangan for students to park).

After class, lunch :)

3 hari aku duduk Shah Alam, 3 hari aku jamu fast food. uh.Bad. Next week kita tak nak makan fast food lah.Kita back to menu biasa kita :)

and ada 1 super great news! After berbulan tunggu sampul surat coklat berlogo UiTM, akhirnya samapi juga ke rumah :) Alhamdullilah, rezeki ALLAH beri.

p/s: Busy isi borang. Pening isi borang. Takpe,untuk masa depan jugak :)

My mama is half a century.

2011-09-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

Being the only daughter and surrounded with boys when I was growing up made me just slightly different from other girls. I was never a long hair-pigtails type of girl when I was growing up; I played with my brothers instead. Luckily, I have a beautiful Mama who gave me my 'girly' sense.

I am always side by side with Mama ever since I can walk (before that, I was either hanging on her shoulders or in my stroller pushed by her). I remember during my high school years, I would sometimes skipped school just because I loved to follow her to the market. As I grow up, we shared most of our tudungs and shoes and even handbags. I was blessed to have a very understanding and sporting Mama; even though I don't have any sisters. There are times I feel like we are more like sisters or best friends rather than a mother-daughter. I can talk about everything and anything with her. She's always supportive no matter how crazy I may sound. My mama never hopes for anything from her children; she just want to see us 3 siblings have a good life and education, most importantly is for us to have Iman and Akidah. Every morning without fail she will knock on our doors to wake us up for Subuh prayers and will always ask us about our prayers. "Bila mama mati nanti doa awak yang mama tunggu, bukan harta benda".

It has been half a century (gila dramatik ayat) since she was born. Alhamdullilah, she was blessed with a great life, a happy family and a good health. I didn't get her any gift or buy her anything. I took her out for dinner instead. I could buy her something but I choose to buy her dinner because I know Mama has enough of everything; but food, it will turn into her own blood and flesh and will forever remain until the day she die.

Today after a small celebration at home, we went out for dinner at Johnny's steamboat. That's our tradition; a little cake followed by a small dinner for 5.

Her cake which she bought for herself. I wanted to pay for it buy she refuses.

Give me anything, I will never trade them for it. I'd rather suffer than not having them in my life.Send me anywhere, as long as I have them in my life, I'll survive.

I can never imagine the day when I have to say goodbye to Mama for good. Ever since I realized that one day she's going to leave me, I started to love her nags, her anger, her rules, her everything. I know this may sound cliche, but I'd do anything for her. Who wouldn't do anything for their mother?

If she can sacrifice her own life giving birth to me, I'd sacrifice mine to see her smile.

I love you more Mama. Happy birthday :)

Kenduri raya

2011-09-09T12:27:00.000+08:00

Aku perasan raya tahun ini ramai yang ambil peluang buat kenduri. Kenduri kahwin, bertunang, merisik,cukur jambul. Ramai sungguh kawan kawan aku yang bertukar status musim raya ini. Aku?Laaaambat lagi.Hati belum terbuka nak tukar apa apa status.Seronok dengan status sekarang. Raya tahun ini juga acara jalan jalan raya aku agak suram sebab cuti raya yang pendek. Semua dah balik ke tempat mencari rezeki masing masing. Jadi tak sempat nak beraya sakan macam tahun lepas. Sigh. Keseronokan raya sebagai orang dewasa?

Dan raya kali ini, aku sempat merasa nasi minyak senior sekolah sendiri yakni kak Faezar Hanum. Kak pae ni sebenarnya anak pengetua sekolah aku dulu. Dan senior setahun aku, merangkap kawan seperkhemahan. Sama sama sumbang tenaga untuk pasukan pengakap sekolah. Ini juga kali pertama aku jejak kaki ke rumah kak pae. Oh nyaman! Rumah kak pae betul betul dalam taman rimba. Amazing gila rumah dia!!! Privacy :)

Dari jauh dah boleh dengar orang main alat muzik lagu2 macam gamelan. Mmg feel sangat2 macam kenduri kahwin. Kalau dah pergi kenduri bekas pengetua mesti lah jumpa bekas cikgu2 juga kan? Jadi macam mini reunion kat kenduri kak pae.Hehe. And normal soalan cepu emas "awk dh kahwin?" jadi soalah utama dari setiap cikgu.

Making our way to Kak pae's nasi minyak.

Pinggan aku.Satay sedap gila!

Mengintai dari tingakp rumah? Btw, pelamin kak pae sgt cantik! Kitorang smp agak awal kira lebih kurang denga time rombongan lelaki sampai. Memang masa orang tengah sibuk nak bersanding dan bergambar atas pelamin, Jadi, tak sempat lah nak pegi laga pipi dan bergambar dengan pengantin. sobsobsobs.Tak apa, janji dapat tengok walaupun dari jauh :)

This awesome candy buffet was done by my senior, Kak Hana Yasmeen. Terliur gila tengok cupcakes and candies dengan marshmellow. Aku nak ambil tapi...segan.haha.Yela tak ada yang jemput makan pun :)

Pengantin dan ibu bapa kak pae. Comel kan kak pae? Dari sekolah memang itu lah saiz dia.Comel.Tapi dulu dia garang sebab dia ketua pengawas.hehe.

Lepas dah pergi kenduri, pergi beraya rumah kawan kawan yang masih ada di Kuantan. Sempat pergi rumah Mila. Dah agak lama tak jumpa Mila so take this chance to meet her. Then, on the way nak hantar Faten balik, singgah rumah Farhanim.

Adlin Aman Ramli sebenarnya adalah abang ipar Farhanim!

Malas nak balik Shah Alam!

Raya suam suam kuku.

2011-09-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

Salah satu sebab raya aku suam suam kuku adalah kerana kutipan duit raya semakin berkurang. Sejak berita aku bekerja tersebar, mak dan pak sedara sudah buang nama aku dari senarai penerima duit raya tahun ini.

Keduanya, adalah sebab aku muntah pada raya pertama akibat terlalu excited menjamah juadah raya. Maklum lah sebulan puasa duduk jauh dari family menu buka puasa asyik benda yang sama : spaghetti. Bila raya jumpa ketupat rendang soto kuih muih habis semua aku gobble (kunyah 2 kali,telan.) Perut aku terkejut jumpa makanan mewah setelah sebulan dihidang makanan bujang.Akibatnya baju raya pertama dan handbag raya tercemar dengan ketupat rendang soto dan kuih muih yang tak sempat smp ke dalam perut.

Ketiganya, aku tanpa sedar terbuang keronsang raya. Ya, TERBUANG. Moral of the story, kalau sedang kemas barang dan terdengar bunyi ada benda jatuh ke dalam tong sampah, rajin rajin lah belek apa yang jatuh. Nasib baik sempat pakai sekali. Tak ada lah kempunan sangat.

Dan satu lagi adalah sebab aku terlupa tutup suis aircon bilik tidur sebelum balik beraya. Aku terlupa aku dah set timer on aircon jadi selama 4 hari 3 malam aku balik beraya di bandar, bilik aku mewah dengan aircon yang terpasang tanpa henti. Buka pintu rumah rasa macam baru turun kapal terbang kat London. 1 rumah sejuk. Bilik aku tak payah cakap lah.Lepas 3 hari pun lantai aku sejuk lagi. Maka aku dengan rela hati hulur duit down payment bil elektrik bulan ini kepada mama aku. Nasib baik ada juga kutipan duit raya walaupun tak seberapa. Boleh lah juga cover down payment bil air con.

Tahun ini juga sesi beraya dengan kawan kawan pun suam suam kuku. Sebab cuti raya seminggu saje dan kawan kawan pula dah jadi pekerja jadi tak sempat nak beraya macam zaman penganggur dahulu.Nak ajak beraya pun ada yang tak sempat sebab terikat dengan perkara lain.

Gambar raya family? Belum sempat snap lagi. Mungkin raya haji nanti baru snap. Gambar raya tahun ini pun tak meriah mana. Kurang gambar. Ini disebabkan oleh faktor adik adik aku malas nak snap gambar walaupn ada kamera canggih yang disandang di bahu masing masing.

Dan sepanjang aku pergi beraya, ini antara soalan paling kerap aku kena tanya:

Kerja kat mana sekarang?
Bila nak habis belajar?
Bukan jadi cikgu ke?
Lepas grad nanti nak kerja apa?
Bila nak kahwin?
Ini anak Azman yang nombor berapa?

Jadi marilah aku perkenalkan baju baju raya yang aku gayakan tahun ini. Tak banyak cuma 4 pasang sahaja (tak banyak ke banyak tu?).

Raya pertama. Baju sebelum dilimpahi muntah dan terbuang keronsang.Sebenarnya aku nak pakai selendang kuning tapi dibantah oleh semua ahli keluarga.

Raya kedua. Baju recycle tapi sebab jarang pakai kira baru lah juga.

Raya ketiga. Aku nak pakai dengan tudung kuning juga sebenarnya tapi sekali lagi dibantah.Entah kenapa sejak 2 3 menjak ni berkenan sungguh aku dengan selendang kuning.

Raya keempat. Dress super labuh.Nasib baik kasut tinggi kalau tak bersih dah Kuala Terengganu aku sapu dengan kain aku.

Baju raya anda berapa pasang?

Setem raya buat semua.

2011-08-27T08:51:00.000+08:00

3 hari lagi nak raya dan aku masih lagi di atas kerusi pejabat. *sigh*. Aku sedapkan hati aku " takpe, balik lambat tak payah kemas rumah".

Dan hari ini juga adalah hari terakhir aku bergelar pekerja. Aku resign. Sebab? banyak sebabnya dan salah satu adalah untuk menyiapkan diri untuk ke kelas semula. Lagi 2 minggu aku akan kembali pegang status pelajar. Tapi dah up sikit la. Pelajar tahun 2.Yeah~ ada junior boleh buli.

Lepas kerja aku terus balik Kuantan. Tapi normal bagi aku mana boleh terus balik. Ada dua tuga tempat juga nak kena singgah sebelum masuk LPT menghala ke Kuantan. Cuma aku harap tahun ni peristiwa tahun lepas tak berulang lagi. Jadi aku ambil langkah selamat ikut jalan biasa sahaja. Aku nak berbuka di rumah, bukan dalam kereta tepi longkang.

Dan untuk semua yang sudi jenguk dan baca apa yang aku tulis selama ini, aku minta maaf zahir batin kalau ada yang aku tulis terguris perasaan yang membaca (kecuali utk ex-boyfriend). Buat yang balik raya hari ini kalau nampak kenari warna hijau/gold pelik di LPT sila bunyikan hon dan lambai. Bukan kepada pemandu, tapi kepada co-pilot. Sebab bukan aku yang memandu hari ini.

Terimalah sekeping stem raya dari aku; Ikhlas buat kamu.

S+R = Happiness

2011-08-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hidup siapa yang tidak dilanda masalah? Kalau tak dilanda masalah, paling kurang disapa masalah. Kalau tak disapa sekalipun, pasti akan terselisih dengan masalah dalam hidup.

Siapa yang kata hidup dia bebas masalah adalah penipu besar yang patut dipulau.

Bila bercerita tentang masalah, aku teringat soalan seorang kawan aku:

"Kenapa kau ni happy je aku tengok? Kau tak ada masalah ke?"

Kalau lah aku boleh tulis setiap masalah yang aku ada, tentu tak cukup ruang dalam blog ini. Aku tak akan menipu, ya, aku ada banyak masalah. Ada semua saiz; kecil, besar, sederhana. Ada banyak degree; penting, tak penting, boleh bawa padah. Aku manusia yang hidupnya sentiasa berkawan dengan masalah.

Cuma aku bersyukur kerana Allah kurniakan aku sifat penyabar yang hanya Dia tahu sejauh mana tahapnya. Ya, aku manusia penyabar. Kadang kala aku terlalu sabar sampai aku sendiri pun tak sangka aku boleh bersabar sampai tahap itu.

Setiap kali aku ditimpa masalah, aku sabar,benda dah jadi, tak boleh nak pusing balik. Yang boleh kita buat is keep on moving foward and face the consequences. Kebanyakkan masalah yang aku ada, aku pilih untuk ignore kan dan biarkan masalah itu pergi sendiri. Kadang kala masalah tak perlu diselesaikan.Percayalah, sometimes it goes away just like that.

Aku manusia yang paling susah marah. Aku sendiri tak ingat kali terakhir aku betul betul marah sampai meninggi suara. Rasanya tak pernah. Kalau aku dimaki sekali pun, aku masih bersabar. Paling teruk sekalipun, aku cuma akan maki balik tapi dengan nada yang masih rendah. Kalau kawan kawan aku 'bahan', aku play along. I hold on the the saying that "when you are able to laugh at yourself, you know you are really enjoying your life". Lagipun, sejauh mana sangat aku nak terasa dengan kata kata kawan aku? Rugi kalau aku merajuk. Entah esok entah lusa aku dipanggil menghadap-Nya.

Aku juga harap kamu yang membaca tulisan (taipan) aku ini juga boleh belajar bersabar. Sabar lah. Apa apa yang jadi, bersabar dahulu. Aku lihat manusia sekarang sudah hilang pegangan kesabaran. Sebab itu ramai yang bergaduh, ramai yang saling berteriak dan bertekak. Sebab tak ada kesabaran, timbul pergaduhan. Kita kena jaga sabar kita. Betul, orang kata jangan terlalu sabar nanti dipijak kepala.Tapi kalau kau tak sabar kau rasa kau boleh buat orang hormat kau?

Tak rugi bersabar. Bak kata pepatah; Good things come to those who waits.

Belajar bersabar dan redha. Aku janji hidup kau akan lebih seronok kalau kau tahu guna pakai dua perkara ini. Tak percaya? Cuba.

p/s: Tahun ini dapat bakar bunga lagi :)

+1 year older and a lot more wiser.

2011-08-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

Semalam pasangan 'kembar' dalam keluarga ZF aku menginjak setahun lebih tua. Tahun lepas 23 tahun ini dah 24 tahun. Masih belum dengar wedding bells.pfft~ Eh silap.Dah boleh dengar sayup bunyi kompang yang bakal dipalu palu. Ok bukan nak cerita kompang siapa yang bakal dipalu. Nak cerita tentang sambutan super sederhana buat pasangan kembar aku.

Memandangkan hari jadi mereka jatuh pada hujung bulan dan ketika poket sedang nazak dilanda kemarau, maka tak dapat lah nak bagi shower hadiah atau belanja makan tempat mahal. Makan pun sendiri yang bayar. Tambah lagi bila bos aku yang cukup pandai putar belit tiba tiba jumpa jalan nak cut off gaji bulan ini jadi hari raya aku memang sedih sebab jadi orang miskin. Tak apa bos,bos curi rezeki saya nanti Allah tarik banyak rezeki tempat bos yang memang tak laku itu (oops termulut jahat di bulan puasa)

Kitorang cuma pergi makan dan bergelak ketawa sambil update cerita selama 2 minggu tak jumpa. 2 minggu dikira lama sebab macam macam boleh jadi dalam dua minggu..apakan lagi 6 bulan kan?Jadi sebab nak sambut hari jadi pergi tempat extra special. Bukan apa, makanan sedap tempat pun cantik kan. Kitorang pergi Fullhouse Sunway Pyramid. Mula mula nak pergi yang Jalan Yap Kuan Seng tapi biasalah aku kan kerja jadi mana mungkin sempat pergi sana. Tapi kalau dengar mereka bawa lah aku pergi kemana mana aku tak kisah sebab aku tahu aku akan sentiasa ketawa dan senyum (walaupun tengah dilanda masalah besar)

The birthday girls. Mya and Fets. Sebut betul betul ya, bukan fat tapi Fets with an 'e'.

Seperti biasa ini yang aku suka.Sebab ini yang sedap dan ini sahaja yang memang aku akan order kalau datang ke sini.

Fets punya. Kuah dia sungguh sedap! Tapi ikan rasa macam ikan tenggiri je.

Jaja dan aku.

Satu perkara yang aku cukup suka dan rasa bangga adalah bila kitorang keluar bersama tanpa ada rancangan apa apa, kami akan tetap pakai baju yang dari palet yang sama. Semalam warna palet kami hijau dan pink dan choco. And the colours, they just blend in together. Bila kau dah berkawan terlalu lama dan terlalu baik, you'll have powers to read your friend's mind and know which colour to wear. Even though you are not in the same room.

Sebab kewangan tak mengizinkan aku beri hadiah mewah, jadi aku cuma mampu belanja mereka kek dan minum di kedai kek rahsia.

In 3 months, aku pula yang akan jadi +1 year older :)

Fets and Mya, thank you for being such wonderful friends for the past 11 years. If I could write a book about us, no amount of paper would be enough to tell all the wonderful and strange things we've been through. I hope we'll be as we are forever....Happy birthday babes! I-I-I love you like a love song baby~

4 Diva dan 1 gadis

2011-08-23T12:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I finally got the chance to go and have my iftar session with my divas. We went to Laman Grill in Seksyen 13, Shah Alam since we've bought the voucher online earlier. I am so excited to meet my Divas sebab dah lama sangat tak lepak and borak and gossip.

Sepanjang malam borak gelak tak habis habis. Dah lah bayar murah, balik pun paling lambat. Duduk lepak sampai semua customer lain dah balik, kitorang still jugak duk angkut makanan. Nasib baik ada surau :)

a very nice ambiance for night session lepaking and borak.

Round pertama. Semua nak ambil western.Kay sorang je tekak melayu nak jugak bedal nasi dulu.

Us.Nanti aku dah ada rumah sendiri aku nak print out gambar ni lekat kat peti sejuk rumah aku yang super besar (berangan).

Terima kasih abang kedai sebab sudi layan kami nak ambil gambar dalam kedai.

Ingat sampai situ je ke kitorang lepak?tidak ya.Belum puas lagi jadi pergi ke Dataran Shah Alam ambil gambar gedik gedik. Dah berpeluh sakan duduk lagi tepi padang borak borak. Aku ni nasib aku kerja je tau kalau tak memang sampai sahur aku duduk dengan dorang.

Abang abang gagah.oh kudaku lari gagah berani.jeng jeng jeng~

Hari ini sesi Iftar dengan my darlings ZF. Celebrate birthday Mya and Faten hari ini. Happy birthday girls!Meh aku belanja kek hari ini :) Oh iftar kat mana hari ini? Fullhouse Sunway Pyramid. Nak pegi y dekat jalan Yap Kuan Seng tapi jauh la pulak takut tak sempat stuck dalam jam. Jadi mana yang dekat je lah kita pergi. Siapa ada kat sana malam ni boleh la maaf zahir batin sama sama :)

Kenapa aku masih satu?

2011-08-23T09:28:00.000+08:00

Aku masih lagi satu. Belum dua.Apakan lagi tiga. Soalan yang paling kerap aku ditanya adalah

"Kenapa masih satu?Bila nak dua?"

Bila aku ditanya soalan sebegini, aku senyum (senyum tak perlu kata apa apa).Memang garu kepala nak jawab. Sebab aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku masih satu.

Tapi aku rasa sebab utama adalah kerana aku memang tak mencari. Cuma aku main main di mulut bila aku bercerita. Alah, orang kata 'play the game'. Kadang kadang terpacul juga dari mulut aku soalan yang sama, dengan harapan adalah kawan yang boleh tolong bagi jawapan atau bagi +1. Tapi sungguh aku kata, itu cuma mainan mulut aku.yes, I'm playing the game guys. So I can look normal.

Dalam hati? Aku memang tak mencari. Bukan aku kunci tapi aku rasa dengan keadaan sekarang dan 'perangai' sesetengah +1 sekarang yang buat aku fikir banyak kali sebelum aku buka balik pintu hati.

Dah banyak +1 yang aku jumpa. Pelik. Dalam ramai ramai tak ada satu pun yang ada kunci untuk buka pintu. Sebab kebanyakkan mereka putus asa sebelum cuba seluk poket sendiri dan tengok kalau kalau kunci ada dalam poket. To tell you the truth...some of them do have the key in their pocket. They just don't have the guts to put their hands in their pocket and take it out.

Ada yang kata aku memandang rupa dan harta benda. Aku gelak guling guling dalam hati. +1 macam ini adalah jenis yang memberi alasan mudah dan cepat putus asa. Kalau nak tahu aku ini memilih rupa atau harta ke tidak, boleh belek kisah aku dan bekas +1 aku. Baru mereka tahu sejauh mana 'aku ini memilih orang'.

Aku cukup simple. Kalau dia boleh buat aku gembira dan ketawa, agamanya terjaga dan kaya budi bahasa itu sudah cukup. Harta dan rupa bukan perkara yang kekal. Bukan juga penjamin aku akan hidup bahagia.

Bukan aku berputus asa cuma aku tidak mahu mencari. Biar dia datang sendiri. Aku yakin bila sampai masa semuanya akan fall to places on its own.Sebab aku tahu Pencipta aku sudah susun elok semuanya; pengajaran dan pelajaran dunia akhirat aku.

P&E

2011-08-22T09:29:00.000+08:00

What do you do when your bestfriend has a broken heart and a fat pocket?

Yes, you take her shopping!

So Pahcik was here (again) last weekend. She wanted to go raya shopping so I begged her to come to Shah Alam. Yes, I begged her. It was ages ago that we really get to spend time together.(tukar mode bahasa Melayu sebab dah nak raya.Baru feel raya) Kalau setakat jumpa satu hari mana cukup. Kena ada sesi pillow talk baru lah seronok. Pahcik cakap (sambil tunjuk list barang nak beli):

" ni saya nak kena p cari semua ni. Bukan untuk saya pun. Ni semua untuk mak, adik and kakak saya"

List itu boleh tahan panjang dan lebarnya. Tahniah Pahcik sebab berjaya jadi seorang anak dan kakak yang baik (tepuk tepuk). Jadi kalau nak cari baju raya baju kurung selendang raya tempat paling afdhal tentulah Jalan TAR. Tapi kalau pergi sergah Jalan TAR seminggu sebelum raya memang tak afdhal. Sesak manusia lebih hebat dari sesak kereta dalam jam. Bau tak payah cakap. Kau nak bau apa? semua ada. Kalau setiap kali aku bergesel bahu dengan orang aku dapat rm1, memang aku dah kaya dah sekarang.

Lihatlah dunia. Lautan manusia yang semua nk beli baju raya. Aku tak faham motif jual belon sambil cakap "Sayang anak, beli belon. Sayang anak, beli belon". Kalau sayang anak tak adanya kau pergi heret anak kecil datang sini bersesak sama sama.

Pilih Pah pilih. Tapi bayar sendiri okay.

SOGO pun hampir hampir roboh kena serbu dengan manusia yang semua nak beli handbag baru kasut baru baju baru. Pahcik langkah satu kaki masuk SOGO dah menguap macam orang 3 bulan tak tidur.

Sebenarnya Pahcik datang sini bukan setakat nak beli dan belah sahaja. Datang sini jumpa kawan kawan sepermainan USM dulu. Alang alang dah datang jauh ni baik jumpa kan. Kebetulan si Baby (Niza) pun pergi Jalan TAR juga. Jadi jumpa lah di sana. Join sekali makcik pakcik yang lepak depan tangga SOGO.

Gembira kan? :) Lelaki yang berbaju hitam dan menggalas handbag kat belakang itu adalah teman lelaki si Niza. Dia tulen dan sejati. Tambah lagi baik hati sebab tolong carry handbag girlfriend.

Kemudian pergi Mid Valley untuk buka puasa dan jumpa Kak nisa pula. Yeay Kak Nisa datang bawa kek pisang yang super sedap! Cukup untuk alas perut sebab makanan sampai lambat. Lepas makan dan solat sambung beli belah lagi. Sale menggila aku pun naik gila sama. Nasib baik tak menggila kalau tak makan pasir nak tunggu gaji bulan depan.

Pahcik cakap dia teringin sangat nak makan nasi daun pisang. Jadi aku pun bawa lah dia ke restoran favourite aku. Mula mula dia makan okay je. Lepas bayar dia pergi m***** tepi kereta. Katanya sebab nampak gambar gajah.hahahahahaha. Takpe janji dah merasa kan cik?

Esoknya pula kitorang pergi terjah rumah si Nuha dekat Kampung Jiboi, Seremban. Mula mula nak ajak Nuha balik Nilai sekali tapi dia nak pergi buka puasa dengan mak dia jadi tak dapat ikut. Takpe dapat jumpa sekejap pun jadi lah.

Lepas itu balik Nilai nak berbuka dengan atuk dan nenek dan mak ngah sekali. Lepas buka borak borak dengan atuk. Atuk aku satu dia pantang orang tulisan hodoh ( tapi cucu sendiri tulisan hodoh). Dia cerita dia tak suka tulisan seorang doktor yang rawat dia.

"Ada doktor sorang ni, atuk tengok tulisan dia...MasyaAllah. Hodoh! Malu atuk! Ada ke doktor tulisan macam tu."

Dalam kepala aku terbayang tulisan doktor yang macam cacing tu. Alah, biasa kan tulisan doktor memang macam cakar ayam. Nurse je yang boleh faham tulisan doktor. Atuk pun ambil lah surat yang doktor tu tulis. Nak tahu hodoh tak hodoh tulisan doktor tu?

Ini by atuk's definition is hodoh. Pada aku normal sebab tulisan aku pun lebih kurang macam ini juga.Tapi ini dikategorikan sebagai h.o.d.o.h oleh atuk.

Sebelum balik atuk bagi mereka ini duit raya. Dah kerja pun dapat duit raya.huh.

...dan Pahcik pun dah selamat balik ke Sri Iskandar pagi tadi.sobsobsobs.
Bulan depan Genting ok cik!

Nakal tapi mengembirakan hati.

2011-08-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

Hari ini kelas terakhir aku dengan student dari Saudi. Sebulan aku duduk, berdiri di depan kelas bagi ilmu yang aku ada. Bila tiba hari nak berpisah, rasa sedih. Mulai minggu depan jadual aku kembali kosong. Biarlah. Lagipun minggu depan adalah minggu terakhir aku berkerja. Lepas tu dah kembali pegang title student UiTM.

Kalau dulu aku agak skeptikal dengan orang Saudi. Aku rasa mereka pelik dan sombong. Pernah juga aku dengar kawan aku cerita mereka ini pengotor dan kasar.

Betul kata orang, tak kenal maka tak cinta.

Bila dah sebulan aku duduk bercampur bergurau senda dengan mereka, aku cukup faham kehidupan mereka macam mana. Mereka sama macam kita orang Malaysia. Cuma mereka lebih kaya. Ya mereka kasar dan suka bertelagah bila ada yang tak sependapat. Dan pantang ada peluang bercakap, memang kau akan susah nak suruh mereka diam. Tapi, percayalah...mereka ini antara orang yang paling baik aku pernah jumpa. Selama sebulan aku jadi guru mereka, mereka juga turut menjadi guru aku. Banyak hal agama yang aku kurang faham aku tanya.

Kehidupan di Saudi terutamanya untuk perempuan tidak lah sebebas kita di sini. Sebab itu mereka suka datang bercuti di negara kita yang ada macam macam. Panggung wayang pun tak ada! Apakan lagi tempat riadah yang seronok macam Sunway Lagoon.

Mereka ini tak pernah malu untuk bertanya, minta tunjuk ajar. Kalau aku beritahu nak buat spelling test, mereka study sama macam aku study nak ambil exam add math. Kelemahan mereka cuma 1, mereka tak boleh dipisahkan dengan blackberry. Memang macam kena gam dekat tangan. Pernah aku rampas BB mereka selama 1 jam. Semua muka kelat.

Isnin depan tak ada lagi ucapan "Assalamualaikum. How are you today?" bila aku sambut mereka di pintu pejabat.

Lepas ini tak ada lagi " Naser, can you please keep your blackberry away and pay attention to what I am saying here?"

Tak perlu lagi " Listen and fill in the blanks" dan kena repeat audio sampai 5 kali.

Tak ada lagi sesi memujuk bertelagah menjeling bergelak ketawa.

Aziz, Lujain,Amani, Alaa, Naser.

It was a blessing to be given a chance to teach these students.Ada jodoh harap boleh jumpa lagi. Suatu hari nanti :)

p/s: Nak tengok RAIN junior?

Bibir sama merah dengan teacher. Tapi teacher punya merah tak asli. Merah lipstick.

deeper conversation.

2011-08-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

Sudah lama aku tak duduk berdua dan bercerita kosong.

Bercerita tentang masa kini. Bermimpi tentang masa hadapan.

Sudah lama aku tak duduk bersila dan biarkan semuanya keluar dari hati.

Laluan hati-mulut aku dah lama dibiarkan kosong.

Sudah lama.

Mahu tak duduk dengan aku dan kita cuma bercerita kosong?

isteri dan bakal (?) isteri bila bertemu.

2011-08-18T09:09:00.000+08:00

Berpuasa dengan suami dan berpuasa sebagai wanita 'single' ada banyak perbezaan. Perbezaan paling ketara adalah dari segi berbuka. Aku (yang masih single) main ikut sedap mulut aku nak makan apa. Kebiasaannya aku masak sebab aku malas nak pergi bazaar. Tapi aku masak ikut apa yang mulut aku nak makan dan aku jenis yang makan benda yang sama setiap hari. Bila tiba hari malas aku pergi drive-tru je. Senang sungguh hidup bujang.

Kalau dah bersuami, mana boleh buat macam tu. Setiap hari mesti nak tanya suami

"sayang...hari ni sayang nak makan apa? Baby nak masakkan untuk sayang".

Dah tak boleh nak ikut suka kita nak masak ke tak nak masak. Kena jaga perut suami supaya suami gembira dan rasa berbaloi memberi hantaran tinggi menggunung ketika masuk meminang dahulu.

Sebenarnya aku nak cerita semalam aku pergi buka puasa di rumah Erin dengan Bismi, Wani and Tim. Erin dan Tim sudah selamat bergelar isteri jadi aku, Bismi dan Wani pergi menuntut ilmu macam mana isteri berbuka puasa bersama suami.

Mula mula yang bujang nak buatkan dessert tapi terlencong pergi Sunway Pyramid dulu jadi dessert hanya tinggal angan angan sahaja. 'Buat' dessert kat kedai je lah jawabnya. Tak apa janji ada dessert.haha.

Ini Bismi. Bakal bergelar Puan juga nanti. Tahun depan katanya.

Ini Wani. Sudah berpunya so tak payah nak minta nombor dia. Aku sorang sahaja yang memang purely single dalam ramai ramai tu.haha.LOSER sungguh rasanya.

Dessert 'hasil tangan' kitorang. Nak bayar guna tangan apa. Lebih kurang la jugak kan. Dalam banyak banyak kedai cupcake yang aku pernah cuba, aku rasa kedai ni yang terbaik. One Apple kat Sunway. Tak manis tak tawar. Rasa dia just nice. Moist gila pulak tu!

Sampai kat rumah Erin tengok2 para isteri sedang asyik bersilat di dapur. Yang bujang buat apa? Yang bujang main try try baju. Tim baru belajar buat maxi dress and her dresses are gorgeous!!!! Aku tengok terus jatuh cinta. Lepas ni memang banyak lah koleksi maxi aku.hahaha. Siapa nak tempah boleh tanya saya :)

Oh jatuh cinta. tapi mungkin aku tak buat top half tu guna lycra la sebab certain parts of my body terlalu menonjol kalu pakai lycra.muahahaha.

Dan....juadahnya.teng teng teng~ Kenyang Alhamdullilah. 4 round aku ulang alik meja refill pinggan.

Tak terbayang aku berbuka dengan suami. Huru hara mungkin.

Ekspedisi warga luar kota ke kota pt2

2011-08-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

I love shopping but I don't like to spend much money. I don't really buy branded stuffs except for things that I know is worth my money buying it. I swear if you ever get a chance to go shopping with me, you'll never see me flips tru the new collection or new arrival section. I would just browse tru it and that's it.

You see the thing is, I'm not rich and I don't think buying expensive stuffs will make me even more better. It would only make my pocket thinner which will make myself unhappier. I believe that you carry your own self. Not the brand you are wearing. If you wear it right then it's going to look fabulous. Give Siti Nurhaliza a rm10 top and she'll wear it like it cost her rm1000.

So when it comes to buying 'new' tops or clothes, I prefer going to bundle shops. I know it will make me sneeze the hell out of me but bundle shops are to die for! (for me at least). But the problem is, there are not many bundles which cater to the ladies. Most bundles have more guy stuffs and not so much in the ladies department.

But things have change. I've found my gold mine!

They should put a trolley in here. Do you know it is hard to flip tru the clothes and holding them at the same time?

One very satisfied customer. VERY SATISFIED.

Fitting time. And campak campak to the next fitting room session.

We had to make some tough decision. Only the chosen one will be taken to the counter. Sorry to those not chosen. Maybe next time.

Ever since I watched the new LipIce TVC, I try not to forget to apply lipstick and be more aware of how pale I look when I don't have any lipstick on. That TVC buat aku sentap!.

Ekspedisi warga luar kota ke kota pt1

2011-08-15T10:55:00.000+08:00

Kalau gatal tangan kanan, kemungkinan besar ada rezeki nak dapat. Kalau gatal tangan kiri? Kemungkinan besar tak cuci tangan betul betul ( cuba untuk tidak berfikiran negatif = hilang duit)

Dah masuk 2 minggu berpuasa jadi memang dah tiba masanya untuk jenguk ke jalan yang hanya diserbu warga kota secara berjemaah setahun sekali. Hari hari biasa pun ada juga warga kota yang serbu jalan ni tapi kalau bulan puasa tambah lagi hujung minggu, bukan setakan warga kota, warga desa, warga emas, warga negara, warga bukan negara pun akan serbu jalan ni.

Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman . Jalan TAR.

Maklum lah, the more the merrier kan? Jadi aku pun rasa nak join in the festival serbu menyerbu juga. Minda dan set dah ramai orang dan panas dan sesak. Tapi lupa nak set kalau hujan macam mana? Keluar car park ngam ngam hujan lebat. Redah jerrrrrrrrrrr~

Kemudia hujan berhenti. Korang pernah rasa suasana di mana baru lepas hujan di atas jalan tar yang memang panas lepas tu ramai orang berjalan jalan dan bersesak sesak? Ya, perasaan yang kurang enak sedikit. Rasa sesak nafas sebab heat dari jalan naik ke atas dan bercampur pula dengan karbon dioksida yang sudah pasti sudah memenuhi ruang udara ketika itu (one hand inside lab coat and another hand pointing to a science diagram)

warga Kuala Lumpur, warga Kelantan, warga Johor, warga Melaka, warga Negeri Sembilan, warga Perak, warga Penang, warga Kedah,warga Perlis,warga Terengganu, warga Selangor, warga Putrajaya, warga Pahang, warga Sabah Sarawak. Semua ada kat sini. Entah entah korang punya muka pun ada kat sini!

2 beg plastik sahaja. Tak lebih.

Cuba cari mana mya?

Warga luar kota yang pergi ke kota untuk merasai kemeriah membeli belah di kota bersama sama warga asing. Yang baju purple tu pelancong dari SK (South Korea?). So that explains the hanging camera on her neck and the amount of bags she has on her shoulder.

*roda roda Kuala Lumpur theme song playing on the background*

Selepas menunaikan kewajipan 5 waktu tengok masih ada masa lagi. Jadi dengan kadar sepantas angin sepoi sepoi bahasa kami (aku) memandu kereta (duta) ke Matta Fair di PWTC. Konon lah nak cari pakej holiday murah murah tapi..... bila kau seorang student dan masih belum ada gaji tetap (kecuali jaja, dia kerja gomen)...masuk Matta fair hanyalah untuk kumpul brochure dan pamplet pakej percutian sahaja untuk di isi ke dalam beg pink yang diberi 'percuma' selepas bayar tiket masuk berharga rm3.

Kami nak beg pink yang comel tu je sebenarnya. Boleh buat laundry bag.

Go go power rangers! Bertukar!

Salah satu pamplet yang berjaya dikutip. Dan bakal ke tong sampah. eh chop bukan. Bakal ke recycle bin.

Menu berbuka : Mana yang sempat je lah.

my inception.

2011-08-12T09:33:00.000+08:00

Sebuah kajian yang pernah dijalankan mendapati seorang manusia normal akan hilang 90% memori tentang mimpi yang dia mimpi semasa tidur apabila dia bangun keesokan harinya.

Tapi hari ini aku tak lupa. Aku ingat keseluaruhan cerita mimpi aku yang sunggu ngeri semalam. Mimpi dalam mimpi dalam mimpi. Ya, aku berjaya buat filem inception sendiri. Mari aku ceritakan mimpi paling ngeri dalam sejarah hidup aku ( setakat ini).

Mimpi bermula bila aku berada si sebuah kedai mencacah tatu. Dan aku sedang mencacah tatu di tangan aku. Tapi tapi tapi! masa dalam mimpi tu aku tak rasa apa apa. Tak ingat langsung yang aku mana boleh betatu. Sebab aku Islam nanti nak ambil air sembahyang tak sah kalau ada tatu. Tapi masa tu aku syok kena tatu sampai tak ingat apa apa. Nak tahu tatu apa aku buat?

Lebih kurang macam ni lah. Tapi in colour. Tak main la bhai hitam putih macam ni, alang alang dah buat...biar colour terus! Oh, tatu ni aku lukis di lengan kanan aku.

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Bila tatu dah siap wah rasa sungguh cool dan hebat sebab ada tatu. Lepas tu aku pun balik ke rumah. Sampai kat rumah aku borak borak dengan housemate aku. Tiba tiba datang seorang housemate aku cucuk aku dengan lidi kat tangan kanan aku. Apa motif dia aku pun tak pasti tapi yang itu memang aku rasa sakit. memang sakit aku tak tipu sebab lidi tu kira masuk dlm daging lah jugak. Aku pun marah marah manja housemate aku lepas tu aku pergi bilik air ambil air sembahyang sebab nak sembahyang. Lepas ambil air sembahyang aku balut tangan aku dengan bandage sebab luka kan tadi (luka sikit tapi beria bandage smp pangkal lengan).

Lepas aku sembahyang, aku tengok tangan kanan aku yang kena cucuk tadi bengkak. Fuh biru babe tangan gua! Aku pun hangin la terus marah tak manja manja dah housemate aku yang cucuk tadi. Masa tu tangan dah mula kebas dah (tapi aku rasa mungkin masa ni aku tidur tertindih tangan sebab tu aku rasa kebas). Aku bising bising sikit then aku keluar. Konon nak pergi klinik dapatkan rawatan lanjut. Masa ni tak sedar lagi tangan bertatu . Sambil aku drive kereta kelisa warna coklat cair (bukan kereta aku dalam dunia sebenar) aku tersedar yang aku ada tatu! Terus aku mengucap panjang yang memang stok sambil menangis punya sebab baru tersedar aku dah buat sesuatu yang sungguh dilarang agama dan memang nak patah balik pun susah. Sepanjang dalam kereta aku menagis sambil mengucap panjang sambil berkata "bodoh!bodoh!" kepada diri sendiri..... dan aku sumpah aku memang ingat benda tu betul bukan mimpi. Memang tak rasa macam mimpi langsung. Siap terfikir macam mana nak mandi wajib, macam mana nak ambil air sembahyang,mana nak cari duit nak buang tatu guna laser, apa nak explain kat mama papa, macam mana nanti orang tengok perempuan pakai tudung tapi ada tatu besar bapak kat lengan...macam macam aku terfikir.

Sampai satu tahap aku niat dalam hati (ketika dalam mimpi) : i rather wet my bed and realized this is just a dream than realizing that i am not dreaming!

Aku drive sampai lah ke satu kawasan rumah flat.Flat memang buruk stok rumah hantu. Aku pn macam tahu tahu itu rumah aku. Aku naik atas tingkat berapa entah then masuk rumah. Aku nampak sepupu aku si Farah tengah nyenyak tidur atas kerusi. Tapi...rumah tu memang stok tumah hantu macam dalam cerita hantu malaysia. Yang jenis tak ada lampu, malap, barang bersepah sepah.

....Dan yang paling ngeri atas lantai rumah aku banyka gila maggots (ulat sampah) sampai ada 5-6 ekor yang besar macam ni!

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Aku halau (halau ulat sampah?pelik.) ulat ulat tu keluar tapi dorang boleh masuk balik dengan senang sebab pintu rumah aku berlubang. Aku memang rasa sungguh tertekan sebab "apa ni?apa ni?". Tak faham kenapa jadi macam ini. Sumpah memang rasa macam real.

Aku keluar rumah dan ambil keputusan nak terjun ke bawah sebab kalau mimpi mesti aku terkejut dan tersedar masa jatuh kan? Aku terjun...... dan ya aku tersedar.

Oh mimpi.

Tapi belum habis mimpi lagi rupanya. Tapi kali ni pun aku tak rasa macam aku mimpi. Rasa macam betul jadi. Aku 'terjaga' tengok tengok aku kat rumah siapa entah. Tapi perempuan. Perempuan tu menangis sebab suami dia tak balik kerja lagi dan dia bersangka buruk bahawa suami dia ada perempuan lain. Dia senang senang ajak aku yang baru 'bangun' ni pergi cari suami dia. Konon nak attack la kalau tengah bercerekarama dengan perempuan lain. Aku pun bawak la dia naik kereta aku tapi kereta kembara pulak (pun bukan kereta aku di dunia sebenar). Tapi kitorang tak berjaya jumpa suami dia. Aku pun cakap aku nak balik dan aku pesan suruh dia balik je lah rumah mak dia.

Tiba tiba handphone aku bunyi. Ada mesej masuk.

Aku tersedar. Cis mimpi lagi! Tapi kali ni memang aku tersedar yang betul punya terus aku check lengan takut takut ada tatu. Lega tengok tangan bersih suci tanpa tatu cuma bulu lengan yang lebat macam gorila.

Sungguh aku rasa takut lagi lagi mimpi pertama. Aku bertatu?

Subhanallah.

p/s: Mimpi mimpi ni aku dapat masa aku tidur lepas sembahyang subuh pagi tadi. Lepas sahur.

Dah 10 hari puasa, boleh bercerita persiapan raya.

2011-08-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

Baru bulan puasa tapi dah ingat pasal baju raya. Puasa macam mana?

Ini pengakuan ikhlas aku. Dulu masa aku kecik aku liat nak puasa. maklum lah, ramai kawan sebaya yang masih lagi tak puasa. Ada satu peristiwa, masa aku duduk di Birmingham, UK. Masa tu bulan puasa..aku berumur 8 tahun kalau tak silap. Maklum lah hidup dikelilingi oleh mat salleh yang tak puasa jadi hati aku pun nak tak nak puasa jugak. kena pulak masa tu summer. Memang lama lah tunggu nak buka puasa. Jadi aku merancang untuk memonteng puasa. Masa tu adik bongsu aku baru berumur setahun lebih nak masuk 2 tahun macam tu lah. Petang petang memang mama bagi lepas keluar rumah tapi depan pintu rumah je lah. Jadi petang tu mama buat karipap untuk buka puasa. Aku bagi adik bongsu aku seketul lepas tu aku bawak dia main depan pintu rumah. normal lah bayi, kalau dah dia pegang sesuatu lepas tu kau sua mulut kau ternganga ngaga depan dia..memang sah lah dia akan suap. Biarpun dia pegang batu sekalipun. Ya, itu memang plan aku. Aku buat buat main nganga depan adik aku yang memegang karipap di tangan kanannya. Dan tak perlu lah aku beritahu apa yang jadi seterusnya. Korang cukup bijak untuk fikir sendiri.

Itu masa umur 8 tahun ok. Sekarang aku cuba sedaya upaya puasa penuh tapi aku subur.Apakan daya.

Jadi sekarang mari kita cerita tentang baju raya pula.

Dulu masa kecik, bila tiba bulan puasa perkara pertama yang aku fikir ialah : baju raya. Tak sabar tunggu mama ajak pergi beli baju raya. Dahulu, aku ikut aje apa yang mama aku beli. Dulu memang tak ada kuasa untuk memilih baju sendiri sebab kuasa veto terletak di tangan super-mama. Sebab dulu tak pandai nak pilih jadi apa sahaja yang mama pilih semua aku rasa cantik. Tambah tambah lagi aku seorang sahaja anak perempuan dia, tak kan lah mama nak bagi anak perempuan dia pakai baju tak lawa kan? Dulu baju kurung cuma sepasang untuk pakai hari raya pertama. raya kedua, ketiga, keempat, kelima baju casual.

Sekarang bila dah besar, 4 pasang baju kurung dan tak ada baju kasual. Mama kata aku dah besar kena pakai baju kurung bila beraya supaya bakal bakal mak mertua terpikat melihat keayuan aku berbaju kurung. *flips hair sambil duduk bersimpuh*

Tapi, tahun ini kenapa ada 2 pasang baju kurung je? Jadi kena lah recycle baju kurung lama. Alah, sejak dah besar ni aku macam tak heran sangat baju raya berapa pasang. Janji aku raya boleh makan macam macam.

Sneak peek baju raya tahun ini.

Tahun ini aku ada tambahan sikit. Oleh kerana baju raya aku sikit, jadi aku nak beli benda lain yang boleh dibuat beraya.

Aku nak beli kerongsang dokoh yang boleh buat rantai sekali.

Selain itu, aku juga berhajat nak bagi duit raya kepada adik adik aku. Tak dapat bagi banyak, bagi sikit pun jadi lah ikut kemampuan. Yang pasti adik adik aku akan dapat duit raya dari aku. Teringin jugak nak bagi duit raya kat mama papa tapi gaji tidak mengizinkan. Maklum lah aku kerja penat tapi bos kedekut tak nak buat aku jadi permanent walaupun aku dah kerja 4 bulan, jadi gaji ciput sahaja (jadi sebab itu aku resign hujung bulan ini, yay!).

Kalau ada duit lebih aku nak beli handbag raya.

Sekian cerita tentang persiapan raya aku.

Pemberian walau sekecil zarah tetap akan dihitung :)

2011-08-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

Pernah dengar pepatah "tangan yang memberi lebih baik dari tangan yang menerima"? Bulan Ramadhan ini elok lah kita saling memberi. Tak dapat beri wang ringgit, dapat beri sokongan moral pun sudah memadai. jadi aku ingin menjemput korang semua memberi sokongan moral kepada kawan aku yang cun melecun tapi sudah menjadi isteri orang kini.

Langkah pertama : 'Like" page Odisi Studio di Facebook.

Langkah Kedua : 'Like' gambar kawan aku yang bernama Fatimah . Boleh klik pada ayat itu sahaja dan ia akan terus membawa kalian semua ke gambar kawan aku.

Langkah ketiga : Korang boleh tersenyum sebab korang dah berjaya memberi sokongan moral kepada seorang insan yang memerlukan. Tahniah! sebab berjaya buat satu perkara baik di bulan Ramadhan ini. Selain itu korang jugak telah bakar sedikit kalori di bulan puasa ini dengan usaha usaha anda meng-klik gambar tersebut. pasti korang akan kelihatan lebih anggun di Hari Raya nanti.

Aku ucapkan jutaan terima kasih bagi pihak kawan aku kepada korang yang sudi 'like' gambar ini.

alhamdullilah :) rezeki hari rabu.

2011-08-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

hari ini bermula agak lousy. dengan drama terhebat abad ini yang berlaku di rumah tengah malam semalam, dengan tak cukup tidur, dengan lewat bangun sahur. aku pergi kerja macam zombie. dalam kelas curi curi tidur sambil berdiri sebelah student. kena pulak hari ini anak anak pak arab mulut bertambah kecoh. sibuk dengan blackberry masing masing. aku terpekik terlolong depan kelas. sabar sungguh hari ini. arabs, kalau bergaduh mulut dari subang jaya ss18 sampai KLCC pun boleh dengar.

habis kelas aku melepek dekat meja. bos duduk depan aku sambil minum necafe panas. bos memang terbaik uji iman saya. bertambah pahala saya, tapi kurang lah pahala bos. sedang berbual dengan bos, tiba tiba tapak tangan kanan gatal. aku garu guna jari kanan (mls nak angkat tangan kiri utk garu tangan kanan). tiba tiba ada email masuk inbox. buka email dan tersenyum lebar.

Alhamdullilah. rezeki Ramadhan Allah berikan :)

duit raya pertama tahun ini.

semoga hari ini dan hari akan datang berjalan dengan lancar :)

one thing i'm good at.

2011-08-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

...is shopping!

before you label me as a shopaholic, look around you first and point me one girl who doesn't love shopping or going to the mall with her girlfriends. gotcha!

pardon me but there's sale everywhere! when i turn my head to the left i can see " 70% off". then i turn to the right and again... " further markdown 50% + 20%". i tried avoiding the shops but come on...it was a mall. there's no point going to the mall and not go into shops. let alone shops with discounts up to 70%. and you know what makes it even harder to not go into the shops and actually buying things? when you go shopping with your best girlfriends who happens to be shoppers too! now that is almost impossible to do. peer pressure...im talking about peer pressure. it's a problem no one in the world can give a solution to.

i just don't want to calculate how much i've spent or how many times i've swiped my credit card on that day. but i have too because i don't like to suspend my cc payment. i end up paying half of what i've spent on my credit card the very next day. i don't like to see a huge figure in my cc's statement.

and i'm dead broke now. but beyond that, i was one happy girl!

you'll never leave the mall empty handed when you go shopping with these girls. you'll at least carry one small plastic bag or a tiny paper bag.

mya and fets discussing about the shoes. angkat letak angkat letak. last2 angkat tak letak letak dah.

i got these for only rm5!! super-steal! and super nipis too. haven't plan on when to wear it tho. see..the power of peer pressure. u'll buy things u don't actually need or know when to wear. i've bought 2 pairs of wedges earlier and this is the 3rd pair i bought in one day.

i almost bought this. but didn't and now i regret it.should have bought it!

we found this jeans which made our legs look lean and slim. and it's 50% off from normal price. we bought it right away. you know you're bestfriends with each other when you don't mind buying the exact same pair of jeans with your girlfriends. :) i tell you la this jeans is like super magic! it fits perfectly on each one of us! that's it...after this if i'm ever going to buy a new pair of jeans, i'm heading straight to DP.

ambil feeling nak raya.

after all those shopping, we were all hungry and the best place to feast is nasi daun pisang nirwana. burp~.

we went home with less money in our pocket but a much much more happy heart :)

there's one thing im not good at.

2011-08-01T15:32:00.000+08:00

i suck at planning a surprise birthday party.

seriously, i can never throw a birthday party. or any party. i just don't know how to party T___T.

it was the month of july and 2 of my bestfriends are july babies. i wanted to throw them a big surprise party where i expect them to jump or at least put on a shocked face when i open the door and shout "surprise!!!!!".

no. as guessed it, it didn't happened that way. it was the other way around. me and faten were the one jumping around and the birthday girls were just staring back at us blankly. so here is what actually happened behind the scene of the birthday party.

on friday night after we got back from dinner (and berjumpa buah hati ku yang gantang sekali), me and faten get started with the decorations. i told mezah im not going to be home that night so she won't want to sleep at my house on friday.geddit?

proses membuat banner low cost. i did most of the cutting. faten did most of the talking.

the next day, after sending my car for service (going back to kuantan this weekend), me and fets went to JJ bukit raja to get some more stuffs for the party and to watch my super-awesome-imaginary-2nd-boyfriends bradley cooper. oh bradley. your eyes your smile. come convert come.

captain america wait for me. coming to see u soon. bila tak pasti la plak.

...and terbeli 2 pasang kasut raya. terbeli.niat nak beli sunglasses tapi terbeli kasut raya.

stuff we got for the party.

the serious look of a ribbon-tier. took her almost 15 minutes and 4 balloons to complete it.good job fets!

the result! boleh la kan for a person who never throws a party before.

the cupcakes.

birthday girls : mezah and jaja.

me and birthday girls!

group photo!